wonderland.
i dont know. i feel like shit today, i cant stop crying, my eyes are on fire. i dont know what i want, im so confused. everytime i blink, i change my mind or my mood. i feel so trapped by my minds restrictions. i look around and see everything, wanting a piece of it all, then deciding im too sick to reach out, the thought of certainty makes me fucking sick. i want to run away, i want to get in a car and drive until i hit the ocean, then i want to walk until im submerged in the chaos. im sure i want something, but i dont know what it is. i want to escape normality, i want to break away from expectations, i want to fucking free, i want to fly. i want to fly away from the scent of anything familiar, i want to start over in some uncharted teritory, i want to feel like im the only one, i want to be the only one