.::'NeEd a CrY'::.
dont u ever just need to cry...like serously...i dont like every cry anymore...but today...i swear to god...i just had to cry so bad...after softball i was soo mad at myself for sucking...and i almost started to cry in the parking lot...but then i sucked it up cuz i hate people seeing me cry(if i ever cry) and then things were fine...and then we brought kelsey home...and went by memere's old house...ahhh i loved that house so much...so many memories...and pepere...and that attic...and...aw ... peeing on the floor in my Easter dress...and the lil hidden room behind the bathroom merior...and eating "salad" with sarah...and all the hateing seeing "the Devil" at Christmas and other holidays...ahh..and tea party in the attic...and me and sarah locking ourselves in the bathroom for hours playing weird games and putting on "make-up"...lol...and...pepere...ah...the one thing that makes me have to cry the most...ahhh...::tear:: ::tear::...just thinking about him sitting in his rocking chair...and him having to drink that awful carrot juice...and then he got sick...and he couldnt do anything for himself...and we had to help him drink water out of a straw...and i did it once...and it was the hardest thing ive ever done in my life...awww and then memere asked him if he knew who i was...and he said i was sarah...and i felt so bad...cuz he didnt even know who i was...and let me tell u when some1 is on their death bed...and some1 asks them if they know who u r...omg...u dont even know how horrible that feels...it happened with justin...he knew who i was...and that was a good feeling...but...aw man...its just...ah idk...its hard to even think about now tho...speshally cuz he died the next day...ok...i need to stop crying now...and i doubt any of u really want to read sob stories...so im done...but this helped me...cuz i got my cry out...