Three Month Battle
Day 1
This is... BY FAR, the hardest thing I've EVER done in my life.
Today was the day. No more smoking. Last night we all smoked our last cigarette and I woke today clean of it. I haven't even looked at a cigarette all day. Nope. Nothing. Zilch. I'M DYING PLEASE HELP ME!
It's the worst thing in the world. I think 10 times today I reached for my cigarettes and realized no no no. *sigh* I hear the first 3 days is the worst, then after that is a 3 month probation period and then after that, you're clear. I need to do this. I need the money and I want to taste things a new. I work tomorrow. That's another battle... Getting thru with with no nicotine. I feel high kinda, I can feel 8 years worth of nicotine leaving my body. Eight years...
I can assure you coffee at IHOP will never be the same and I do say less desirable. The ending of sex will never feel so "complete" even know my baby rocks my world. I couldn't do this without his support. and I need all of you guys support too. Prepare for the devil. Prepare for rivers of tears and wild mood swings. If you care about me, that's all a small price to pay for seeing me live longer and being more healthy.
I do say, even the air tastes better today and I'm trying to be as optimistic as I can.
Day 1 complete and off to sleep I go to wake another morning smoke free. Wow. Crazy. Goodnight.
This is... BY FAR, the hardest thing I've EVER done in my life.
Today was the day. No more smoking. Last night we all smoked our last cigarette and I woke today clean of it. I haven't even looked at a cigarette all day. Nope. Nothing. Zilch. I'M DYING PLEASE HELP ME!
It's the worst thing in the world. I think 10 times today I reached for my cigarettes and realized no no no. *sigh* I hear the first 3 days is the worst, then after that is a 3 month probation period and then after that, you're clear. I need to do this. I need the money and I want to taste things a new. I work tomorrow. That's another battle... Getting thru with with no nicotine. I feel high kinda, I can feel 8 years worth of nicotine leaving my body. Eight years...
I can assure you coffee at IHOP will never be the same and I do say less desirable. The ending of sex will never feel so "complete" even know my baby rocks my world. I couldn't do this without his support. and I need all of you guys support too. Prepare for the devil. Prepare for rivers of tears and wild mood swings. If you care about me, that's all a small price to pay for seeing me live longer and being more healthy.
I do say, even the air tastes better today and I'm trying to be as optimistic as I can.
Day 1 complete and off to sleep I go to wake another morning smoke free. Wow. Crazy. Goodnight.