goin' home.
ah, texas.
going back to a place you left behind is... well, weird, to say the least. but i'm not staying here, so that's one good thing. coming back to texas has made me realize that:
- it's not my home, even though my family lives here.
- my family's actually not that bad.
- the only friend i have here now was someone i betrayed.
- i have no guilt about the other ones, the friends that betrayed me. they can grow the fuck up.
- athens is actually my home.
- my friends there love me unconditionally. i don't have to censor myself.
i know these all sound like mundane realizations, but the simplest, most important things are sometimes the hardest to learn. they usually involve you tearing down some of your first concrete observations.
some people live their whole lives not realizing there is a world outside of themselves.
in other news, i'm not usually this serious. honestly.
going back to a place you left behind is... well, weird, to say the least. but i'm not staying here, so that's one good thing. coming back to texas has made me realize that:
- it's not my home, even though my family lives here.
- my family's actually not that bad.
- the only friend i have here now was someone i betrayed.
- i have no guilt about the other ones, the friends that betrayed me. they can grow the fuck up.
- athens is actually my home.
- my friends there love me unconditionally. i don't have to censor myself.
i know these all sound like mundane realizations, but the simplest, most important things are sometimes the hardest to learn. they usually involve you tearing down some of your first concrete observations.
some people live their whole lives not realizing there is a world outside of themselves.
in other news, i'm not usually this serious. honestly.