678
The end of the line. Last few weeks at DVC. It has been a while, but I think that it was high time to move on. I sit in my last two classes, and I see a plethora of freshmen all eager to get on with their lives and ambitions. I feel somewhat out of place, as if I have spent too much time figuring out my desires. I feel old. It is as if the sands of time washed over me and left me in a world to which I do not belong. Where do people find the passion, the drive and desire to pursue their aspirations so vigorously? I honestly don't really care about the career path that I have chosen, it is just something I would be fairly comfortable doing. Am I supposed to "love" my job? Perhaps my search was not successful, perhaps it was. I somehow feel that I cannot afford to keep looking any longer.
I am tired, so tired. I am tired of the drudgery that I have to go through every day. I am tired of the endless chatter and enthusiasm exuberated by the rest. I'm tired of looking for that piece of sanity in the world. Very little makes sense to me anymore. The government is ruining the country, the media is covering it up. Yet people remain unconcerned, as if there will be some knight in shining armor to come to the rescue. Like Californians: they don't want services cut, and don't want more taxes, but they do want the budget hole filled. Sorry, it just does not work that way. Where is the common sense of people, have they lost it? I believe we are too arrogant for our own good and need a lesson in humility. The time for that will come soon enough, I just hope we can survive the hardship.
I wish I could somehow escape reality...I wish I could.
I am tired, so tired. I am tired of the drudgery that I have to go through every day. I am tired of the endless chatter and enthusiasm exuberated by the rest. I'm tired of looking for that piece of sanity in the world. Very little makes sense to me anymore. The government is ruining the country, the media is covering it up. Yet people remain unconcerned, as if there will be some knight in shining armor to come to the rescue. Like Californians: they don't want services cut, and don't want more taxes, but they do want the budget hole filled. Sorry, it just does not work that way. Where is the common sense of people, have they lost it? I believe we are too arrogant for our own good and need a lesson in humility. The time for that will come soon enough, I just hope we can survive the hardship.
I wish I could somehow escape reality...I wish I could.