but i have good news!
well i haven't written in this thing in quite a while so i thought i'd put something in that's nice. i feel like i'm finally past the stage where i feel like i'm needing something. i realized exactly what that was. i was missing a lot of friends. friends that i didn't have at the time yeah. friends that i did have but had lost. pretty much a real social life. i had one but it was in dire straights. so now that i have that thing going again & i have some solid friends that i can really count on to entertain me & keep my spirits up i don't feel as though i'm really missing anything. i don't feel like i should be getting laid or looking for girls. i don't feel like i should have more money or go to a different school. i just feel content. this is not a content for a day either. i've been feeling this for quite some time now. also because of this i'm not feeling like i'm really risking much in talking to girls, so i got that back. my schedule at wayne fell into place. my mom's moving out so that my friends can move in. i was right in explaining that a lot of the little things in life i have no luck for. rock, paper, scissors. catching red lights. etc. instead it's traded out for luck in big things in life. such as needing money. getting classes. getting just what you need right as you need it. it's very nice. mental note thank god for this. cosmic diety, whatever you want to call it. it's doing very good work for me. tanks! so i'm just enjoying every little bit of life as it comes. i do have to say though that a combination of mainly 3 people has fixed me up. that'd be joe, al, and of course lena. not to say other people don't get a mention, especially mikey and ryon, but still. those 3 have seem to have done the most.