:: Words speak in truth ::
Well, I've decided I'm going to completely give up on pursuing anything with Cassie. If it happens, it happens. But it's too awkward and weird to be in this middle ground. I'm not going to spend time trying to figure out what she's thinking. For now, we are friends. If it becomes obvious that she wants more than that, than I will happily go along with it. However, if we stay just friends, that too is fine. For now that is all I expect. The problem though is I don't know how to just say, alright, I'm done. Because it's not that easy because I'm always around her and that just makes me start to like her more and more. I guess it's something I have to get into my head. I don't know, it's a weird place to be in... and I don't like it. I've noticed that it's harder for me to be myself now. Because now I feel like I have to impress her or something I don't know. Just before I was so carefree and just had fun and wasn't constantly trying to figure all of it out. It was more fun like that and that's what I want. So who knows what will happen, but I'm not going to spend more time thinking about it. I want to be able to hang out and talk and have fun and not think about all that other stuff.
Any way, I'm tired, so I'm going to bed.
Any way, I'm tired, so I'm going to bed.