:: Someone like you ::
It gets me extremely frustrated that I can't write lyrics. I have so much that I want to write about, but I can never do it. I have songs after songs, that musically, are amazing, I just can't put words to them. And I know how much I could use being able to write right now. I guess that is that though. Forced writing never sounds good any way, so I'll just deal with it.
Another wonderful day spent with Cassie. Another melancholy night spent thinking about her and wondering what is going on. She is so hard to read at times. It's impossible to tell what she's thinking. We hung out all day. I went to her apartment earlier and we played some pool and then went and got shakes and lunch. Then spent the rest of the after noon in my room listening to different songs and just chatting. At times it feels like her and I could date and that we'd be perfect together (I feel like I can't say this any more since I thought that so much of me and amanda and look how we turned out) and then at times, it feels like I am just another friend to her. I don't know what to think or how to act or what to say. I just go along with it and, in my typical fashion, over analyze every little thing like there is some big significance to it. It's a very odd and confusing thing. I want to talk to her but at the same time, I don't know if it's worth it just for the fact that it feels like there is more saying she doesn't feel the same then there is saying she does. Why must things always be so difficult? Why can't it just be simple? Do I sack up and talk to her and risk making our friendship awkward? Or do I push down these feelings and go along with it and see what comes of it? I keep telling myself that I will know in time and things will work out as they are suppose to, but it's hard to go along with this. Especially when these emotions get stronger and harder to ignore. Everyday it gets harder and harder to just be her friend because I learn more about her that makes me like her more and more. I spend more time with her and realize over and over again how amazing she is.
So now what?
Another wonderful day spent with Cassie. Another melancholy night spent thinking about her and wondering what is going on. She is so hard to read at times. It's impossible to tell what she's thinking. We hung out all day. I went to her apartment earlier and we played some pool and then went and got shakes and lunch. Then spent the rest of the after noon in my room listening to different songs and just chatting. At times it feels like her and I could date and that we'd be perfect together (I feel like I can't say this any more since I thought that so much of me and amanda and look how we turned out) and then at times, it feels like I am just another friend to her. I don't know what to think or how to act or what to say. I just go along with it and, in my typical fashion, over analyze every little thing like there is some big significance to it. It's a very odd and confusing thing. I want to talk to her but at the same time, I don't know if it's worth it just for the fact that it feels like there is more saying she doesn't feel the same then there is saying she does. Why must things always be so difficult? Why can't it just be simple? Do I sack up and talk to her and risk making our friendship awkward? Or do I push down these feelings and go along with it and see what comes of it? I keep telling myself that I will know in time and things will work out as they are suppose to, but it's hard to go along with this. Especially when these emotions get stronger and harder to ignore. Everyday it gets harder and harder to just be her friend because I learn more about her that makes me like her more and more. I spend more time with her and realize over and over again how amazing she is.
So now what?