Now then as for my own father, if he even earns that much. For all I know he's dead in a ditch. He only tried to contact me 7 times throughout the course of my life. And thats about it really, yeah 7 times, kept count great parentin' there number one dad material when really a third of them are 'Do I need to come down there?' speaches. Hell I have less respect for him than I do my own mother. I'd only respond 'With what money, and what for? Its not like you're my father or anything.' Hell he's the most pathetic I've seen, a high school dropout that still lives with his mother. Moreso, he actually tries to be a parent with my unknown older sister, and my younger brother. And hell with the times I had spent with my younger brother, he even then tried to keep me in a corner with him. Like all of a sudden I'm just some other person there no relation of course. For instance my younger brother did love wrestling, so he'd jump on me. I'd still remember being that way with my older cousins 'Oggy' (I've just know him as that my whole life) and Peter. I'd always chase them down and try and beat them wrestling or something of the like noone bothered trying to save me from them, noone had to, me acting my age, them acting theirs. As for me and my bro, not able to be, me I'm pretty ostracised and looked at as some kind of freak. And even for my grandma and grandpa's place I'm only remembered there by my cousin's Oggy and Peter, my aunt Conchita (as I've known her my whole life as well), and my uncle andy. Hell with the times I had spent at my dads house, its was always an awkward thing, he'd only ask me one question over a bowl of cereal for the entirety of a day, when really he came to pick me up from being with my uncle to spend a day with me. Just a 'how are you doing in school?' 'oh your mother says: (insert crap here)' nothing like a what are you into, or even a single acknowlegement of hey I haven't been around for about the last 3 years. Hell with the last family reunion I was at about 6 years ago, I left for 4 hours and he didn't know I was even gone. So yeah with my parents I'm both forgotten and well just a scapegoat I'd want to say. With my family one half I would think I'm considered a demon with and the other just completely unknown to me, I've never felt the urge to pry what my uncle thinks of me out of him, just because well I haven't been judged one way or the other by him, as for the rest of them, they just think I'm cool but wierd. Which I can understand, I'm a black sheep of the family, but I'm still acknowleged as one of them though. Well as for the subject of fortune though dude. I've not had much either sure its a little bit more than you, but its been at the cost of happiness. I'm not happy with it, hell I didn't even want half of it. Material shit isn't going to do a thing for your spirit. As for being an only child its not great really, all it does is just make you a target for your parents agression if they can't just control it themselves. At least having sibling around would either give you somebody to talk to or someone else to go to rather than have to take on everthing alone.
So yeah with my parents I'm both forgotten and well just a scapegoat I'd want to say. With my family one half I would think I'm considered a demon with and the other just completely unknown to me, I've never felt the urge to pry what my uncle thinks of me out of him, just because well I haven't been judged one way or the other by him, as for the rest of them, they just think I'm cool but wierd. Which I can understand, I'm a black sheep of the family, but I'm still acknowleged as one of them though.
Well as for the subject of fortune though dude. I've not had much either sure its a little bit more than you, but its been at the cost of happiness. I'm not happy with it, hell I didn't even want half of it. Material shit isn't going to do a thing for your spirit. As for being an only child its not great really, all it does is just make you a target for your parents agression if they can't just control it themselves. At least having sibling around would either give you somebody to talk to or someone else to go to rather than have to take on everthing alone.
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