Seriously, so much stress
I've been trying (and getting distracted) writing a presentation to do tomorrow. Am I prepared? No. Is is even really ready? No. Am I losing my mind because I have to give a presentation that is worth 75% of my grade in my core class in under 24 hours and I'm cramping and stressed? Yes.
I'm at that level of anxious where I want to pull out my hair or claw at something. I'm restraining myself. This class isn't worth self destructive behavior but I can't do this. And I'm trying to hide it in person because I'm worried if I let it out, it'll be this big screaming thing and entirely at the wrong person (who is being so nice and bringing me food.)
I'm flat out not ready but it's tomorrow. I want to email and ask or more time... if I can get it. But I already feel like I've had time. I don't know. It's a mess. I'm a mess. I'm in pain and want to curl up and sleep for a bit a not work on this stupid presentation right now.
I'm at that level of anxious where I want to pull out my hair or claw at something. I'm restraining myself. This class isn't worth self destructive behavior but I can't do this. And I'm trying to hide it in person because I'm worried if I let it out, it'll be this big screaming thing and entirely at the wrong person (who is being so nice and bringing me food.)
I'm flat out not ready but it's tomorrow. I want to email and ask or more time... if I can get it. But I already feel like I've had time. I don't know. It's a mess. I'm a mess. I'm in pain and want to curl up and sleep for a bit a not work on this stupid presentation right now.