I will cut through curtains of cunning and find you somewhere in the moonlight
So I've finally decided to blog on my LJ. I've actually just been reading entries and stuff and I haven't had the time nor the energy to write about things.
On myself:
I find that I've been more reserved as of late. Not reserved in the "i'm sitting quietly in a corner" sense, but more of "I'll talk about anything but myself" kind of reserved. I guess I just don't trust as easily anymore, even if someone is really deserving of my trust. I'm feeling guilty over that last bit, but I promised myself I'd open up to those people who really care about the stuff I have to share. I just want to avoid talking about important things with people who just want to fill in the dead air with words. I can do that now. Fill in dead air with chaff and useless conversation. That doesn't mean I want to do it.
On work:
Work has been a pleasant distraction. My emotions are on autopilot, but my brain's chugging along. I'm not sure yet if this is what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, but hey, it's something meaningful to do in the meantime. I feel that I'll get that saving the world itch and finally give in once the bond of my contract is over, but I might also stay on or move to another company. It's still too early to say. All I can say is, I'm enjoying the work and I think I'm a workaholic.
On life:
I'm trying to insert some order in my life. I work around 12 hours a day and get some exercise after. I get home at around 10 and surf the net until I fall asleep. That's about my daily routine. On Fridays I go out with whoever's available. I spend the weekends getting back sleep, getting a bit of exercise and reading books. I realize I don't care as much about the weight loss right now. I just want to be active and do something besides lie on my bed and play games all weekend.
That's about it. I miss my friends already. Lia says we can get together at my house on October 30. Eleazar food. A bit of alcohol. The usual suspects.
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On myself:
I find that I've been more reserved as of late. Not reserved in the "i'm sitting quietly in a corner" sense, but more of "I'll talk about anything but myself" kind of reserved. I guess I just don't trust as easily anymore, even if someone is really deserving of my trust. I'm feeling guilty over that last bit, but I promised myself I'd open up to those people who really care about the stuff I have to share. I just want to avoid talking about important things with people who just want to fill in the dead air with words. I can do that now. Fill in dead air with chaff and useless conversation. That doesn't mean I want to do it.
On work:
Work has been a pleasant distraction. My emotions are on autopilot, but my brain's chugging along. I'm not sure yet if this is what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, but hey, it's something meaningful to do in the meantime. I feel that I'll get that saving the world itch and finally give in once the bond of my contract is over, but I might also stay on or move to another company. It's still too early to say. All I can say is, I'm enjoying the work and I think I'm a workaholic.
On life:
I'm trying to insert some order in my life. I work around 12 hours a day and get some exercise after. I get home at around 10 and surf the net until I fall asleep. That's about my daily routine. On Fridays I go out with whoever's available. I spend the weekends getting back sleep, getting a bit of exercise and reading books. I realize I don't care as much about the weight loss right now. I just want to be active and do something besides lie on my bed and play games all weekend.
That's about it. I miss my friends already. Lia says we can get together at my house on October 30. Eleazar food. A bit of alcohol. The usual suspects.
Leave a message in facebook or here. It's nice to hear from you.