Stripped Bare...
So here it is, undressed; the naked truth.
I'm not doing so good... I've been crying solid for about 24 hours now.
I build myself up, i tell myself i'm worth it, i'm gonna prove to the world i'm someone. I'm not what all those bullies said i was, i'm not worthless like he said, i'm not the black sheep i feel in my family...
But last night i got into a silly argument with my boyfriend, i told him i needed to step back and be away from him it was too stressful and my docters say i've to avoid stress and i needed to stop. He replied he asks himself why he keeps trying and then that he didnt even know why... Then he signed off.
When your not even worth trying for, to someone you love, it's hard to see yourself worth anything at all.
I don't know how to come back from this, i'm right back in that dark place, right back in the hole i spend my life trying to climb out of, and i get so close i can see the light and i reach for it ... and everytime someone knocks me back down to the bottom.
I dont know... i just dont know...
I'm not doing so good... I've been crying solid for about 24 hours now.
I build myself up, i tell myself i'm worth it, i'm gonna prove to the world i'm someone. I'm not what all those bullies said i was, i'm not worthless like he said, i'm not the black sheep i feel in my family...
But last night i got into a silly argument with my boyfriend, i told him i needed to step back and be away from him it was too stressful and my docters say i've to avoid stress and i needed to stop. He replied he asks himself why he keeps trying and then that he didnt even know why... Then he signed off.
When your not even worth trying for, to someone you love, it's hard to see yourself worth anything at all.
I don't know how to come back from this, i'm right back in that dark place, right back in the hole i spend my life trying to climb out of, and i get so close i can see the light and i reach for it ... and everytime someone knocks me back down to the bottom.
I dont know... i just dont know...