What I've become...

[kyohki]

Looking back I never thought I would end up where I am today. Broke, in debt, jobless... it really is a miracle I am not homeless. I've accomplished nothing in the last 22 years really worth mentioning, and have very little work experience by today's standards. Finding a job is near impossible right now, and my will to keep going is ever dwindling. My mother doesn't talk to me, my sisters won't talk to me, my father... well if you've been around me enough to hear my stories, you can understand why I won't talk to him. I feel like crying, but I can't anymore, it seems as though my body just stopped trying. For those wondering how I've been I am sorry I've lost contact, I've been going through some really tough shit right now. *sigh*

If there was anything I could be right now, I would choose nothing. My will is crushed, and I sense there is only more hardships to come...
God? if there is a god... I could use a little break.