I AM DONE FOREVER!
Yep, I hit my weight goal today. I am officially "done" with my diet.
Height: 5'3", maybe 5'4"
Weight: 115 lbs
I may try to lose a few more pounds just so my weight at the doctor's office (that is, weight with clothes and shoes on) matches my "actual" weight, but I no longer have to obsess over calories. I'm still going to count them, but I won't feel so bad if I go over 1200/1300 anymore.
It took me 6 months, which is about 2 months longer than it should have taken, but I'm happy with the results. I still have some more work to do (converting fat to muscle, building up my endurance, etc) before I am completely satisfied, but getting down to my goal weight was a good start. I can fit into my high school jeans again, which is nice. The best thing, however, is how much this has helped my self confidence.
I've never liked myself much because (in my humble opinion) I have too many flaws and hardly any good qualities. I've hated almost everything about myself, physically and personality-wise, for the last decade. This diet has made me realize that I don't HAVE to live with the things I hate about myself. Saying "I don't like this; I'm going to change it" and then sticking with it until I see the results has given me hope for the future. If I've managed to change some of my physical "flaws", maybe I will be able to change the rest too. Maybe I will even be able to change some of my personality flaws. Maybe, if I'm able to change enough things about myself, I will finally be able to like myself.
And yes, I know that maintaining weight can be harder than losing it to begin with, but I kind of have a plan. I am still planning to keep track of my daily calorie intake, though I will be more lenient on what I allow myself. However, this does beg the question: how many calories do I need to eat to maintain my weight? 1500 calories? 1600? I never did figure out exactly how much I was burning each day. I was just using standard height/weight charts to determine how many calories I should eat on a daily basis.
Our oven is finally fixed too. I think I may bake a cake to celebrate. You would not believe how much I've missed cake in the last two months.
In other news, I was trying to do a Nuzlocke challenge for FE8. (Only recruit one character per chapter, if they die you cannot replace them, no using side-quests to raise your under-leveled characters, no Seth, etc) It was fun for a while, but then I got to the chapter where you could recruit both Ewan and Marisa. I could not decide which one I wanted to use, so I said "SCREW THIS, I'M USING BOTH OF THEM!" and then went to the Tower of Valni and leveled them up until they were on par with all my other characters. Way to completely ruin the point of the challenge, self. And this is why I will never be considered a hardcore gamer. If the rule restrictions are too hard or aren't fun enough for me, I just give up.
Height: 5'3", maybe 5'4"
Weight: 115 lbs
I may try to lose a few more pounds just so my weight at the doctor's office (that is, weight with clothes and shoes on) matches my "actual" weight, but I no longer have to obsess over calories. I'm still going to count them, but I won't feel so bad if I go over 1200/1300 anymore.
It took me 6 months, which is about 2 months longer than it should have taken, but I'm happy with the results. I still have some more work to do (converting fat to muscle, building up my endurance, etc) before I am completely satisfied, but getting down to my goal weight was a good start. I can fit into my high school jeans again, which is nice. The best thing, however, is how much this has helped my self confidence.
I've never liked myself much because (in my humble opinion) I have too many flaws and hardly any good qualities. I've hated almost everything about myself, physically and personality-wise, for the last decade. This diet has made me realize that I don't HAVE to live with the things I hate about myself. Saying "I don't like this; I'm going to change it" and then sticking with it until I see the results has given me hope for the future. If I've managed to change some of my physical "flaws", maybe I will be able to change the rest too. Maybe I will even be able to change some of my personality flaws. Maybe, if I'm able to change enough things about myself, I will finally be able to like myself.
And yes, I know that maintaining weight can be harder than losing it to begin with, but I kind of have a plan. I am still planning to keep track of my daily calorie intake, though I will be more lenient on what I allow myself. However, this does beg the question: how many calories do I need to eat to maintain my weight? 1500 calories? 1600? I never did figure out exactly how much I was burning each day. I was just using standard height/weight charts to determine how many calories I should eat on a daily basis.
Our oven is finally fixed too. I think I may bake a cake to celebrate. You would not believe how much I've missed cake in the last two months.
In other news, I was trying to do a Nuzlocke challenge for FE8. (Only recruit one character per chapter, if they die you cannot replace them, no using side-quests to raise your under-leveled characters, no Seth, etc) It was fun for a while, but then I got to the chapter where you could recruit both Ewan and Marisa. I could not decide which one I wanted to use, so I said "SCREW THIS, I'M USING BOTH OF THEM!" and then went to the Tower of Valni and leveled them up until they were on par with all my other characters. Way to completely ruin the point of the challenge, self. And this is why I will never be considered a hardcore gamer. If the rule restrictions are too hard or aren't fun enough for me, I just give up.