Nihilism Chapter 1 (edited)
I could hear my heart beating loudly, pushing through my chest. Fear was pulsing through my veins and that was more than adrenaline could do to keep my legs moving. I heard nothing, but as I came to a stop I knew I wasn't alone. My eyes scanned the dark alley, nothing. Nothing but trash and…Wait in the corner of two dirty building walls something caught my eye. By what light, I don’t know. But it was a dream right? Does there even have to be light in dreams for you to see? Careful steps, I approached the mysterious object. One foot in front of the other. Finally, 5 feet before it, I could see it was a full length mirror. I only saw darkness reflecting in it. Fixiating on one spot, I saw the scene behind me. Rotting boxes full of shit. I trained my eyes on a place directly in front of me, again just the setting. Three finger tips rested on the cold glass. Now a hand appeared in the mirror. A band on the middle finger, mine. Now an arm in black leather, mine. Until I saw my whole body appear. No sooner had the mirror conjured up the image did it suddenly burst to pieces.
The first five seconds back into reality where terrifying. He was sweating, breathing deeply. As his eyes adjusted to the darkness he reached over and gently put his hand on Shinya’s face. He pulled the sleeping figure closer to him as he lay back into the darkness, staring at the ceiling.
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Shinya’s complaining moaned at the brightening sky coaxed Kyo awake.
He kissed his lover until his anger at the light was forgotten. He loved when he was this close to Shinya. So close that he could count every eyelash. Kyo broke away and licked his lips. Shinya threw his arm over Kyo’s stomach. The other groaned. He hated getting Shinya out of bed on days like this. Days when all he wanted to do was lay with Kyo and drift in and out of sleep. Kyo didn’t exactly object to the idea, but they both had to work.
A cell phone rang. The poppy noise that annoyed Kyo to no end, but he was glad that it was Shinya’s phone. Now the sorry person on the other end would have to pay, not Kyo.
After a shower and dressing, they where now saying their goodbyes. Shinya left first, he had to be there at 6 am. Actually, his best friend had to be there at 6 am, but somehow he had suckered Shinya into coming in early to keep him company.
Time and all other matters where lost in the need of their kiss. Shinya granted him allowance for his hands to wonder. Kyo’s breath was thick with lust.
“Fuck Toshiya”
The bag Shinya was holding was forgotten. Touching each other hungerly, they made it to the couch. Sweet and sticky cherry lip gloss was smeared on both of them. Shinya whimpered.
“I have to go,”
Kyo didn’t even open his eyes.
“No you don't” kiss.
“Toshiya will cry,"
Kyo gave a muffled laugh. He probably would cry. But they had passed the moment were it would be more fair to leave Kyo instead of Toshiya, now it would just be cruel.
Their hair tangled in each others. Kyo pushed Shinya onto the couch where he sat on top of him, undoing his belt. The other waited helplessly. Kyo took off layer after layer from the mans legs. Belt, skirt, tights, fishnets, lucky Shinya hadn’t put on his shoes yet, Kyo tore away his underwear while Shinya took off his own shirt. Kyo kissed, and sometimes stopped to suck, from his mouth to his abdomen. Kyo’s tongue circled Shinya’s length. Slowly taking him in, saliva mixing with precum. The both moaned. Kyo went up and down faster and faster, with Shinya’s fingers entangled and gripping his hair, ---------.
The icy coldness of the mirror stung my fingers. Where am I? Wasn’t I just…never mind. I watched my reflection appear, one body part at a time. My heart was racing. There was something unsettling about the person in the mirror. Shards of glass few about. The crash was deafening.
Shinya came in his mouth. He swallowed every drop of his lovers juices.
**im dedicating this fic to taylor and lesley, who i will make read a fic about people they hardly know. ht_56 =), T.S. Rex-whose fic, Akai Batsu to Shiroi Ai, i started reading..and loving today ^^ and all ficcy authors on geocities; whose diru fics written in the begining of their career i have nicely enjoyed on my way to school every morning..and the author of Tango and Gravity..its so old but i cant get that out of my head!