Bleck
EHh it's been a slow day. Not really bad, just the type that you spend in your head (ok so most people don't do this--but I do). I dunno- so many of my friends live far away and the ones that don't aren't immediately available in a crisis. A few days ago my entire support network crashed around me and that was a MINOR crisis. What happens when I get tackled by a huge mood swing, or god forbid, a prolonged mixed state? I have no one near by that I can call at one in the morning and cry to. Not one. And the ones that live far away LOL I'd say even then it's stretching it. I don't like burdening people so I tend to have a pretty broad network so no one gets dumped on too much. But as it is--I pretty much have no available friends in the area. I have no way of making new friends in the area really either. And while I could of course go up to people in starbucks or at a bar and say hey--wanna be friends, I doubt that'll work out well.
So I have to do some rethinking of how all this is going to work. I dunno. I've been mood swingy lately because they're changing the level of one of my mood stabilizers. This is going to get worse because I'm still increasing slowly... I'm supposed to get up to another 100 mg and I'm only on 25 mg right now more. So I dunno what happens if I have a real problem...
So I have to do some rethinking of how all this is going to work. I dunno. I've been mood swingy lately because they're changing the level of one of my mood stabilizers. This is going to get worse because I'm still increasing slowly... I'm supposed to get up to another 100 mg and I'm only on 25 mg right now more. So I dunno what happens if I have a real problem...