Fic: Just Like Any Other Day
Title~ Just Like Any Other Day
Fandom~ Infinite RPF
Pairing~ 2Woogyu
Word Count~ 2873
Summary~ Woohyun- gender!swap
Author's Note~ This is … okay. So this is actually kind of weird. This is a snippet of a fic that will probably never be fleshed out (mostly because I don’t know how much more pain I can stand putting Woohyun through) … so - the ( Read more... )
THE SOUND I MADE WAS NOT HUMAN.
And even though Dongwoo’s lazy circles across Woohyun’s skin would have - at any other moment - relaxed him (or driven him to distraction until he pulled the older boy into a dark corner and pressed his body fully into the other’s - until those lazy circles were mirrored by tangling tongues, until one or both of them was breathless)
YES PLEASE.
Even in loose-fitting, ragged clothing - nothing could hide Dongwoo’s natural grace and self-confidence, the well-formed body underneath. Woohyun watched a woman walk past them, her eyes caressing his comrade’s form with a look of clear appreciation - her eyes lingering where his biceps peeked out from under his sleeveless hoodie - Woohyun didn’t have to follow her gaze to know what she saw. He knew more intimately than she ever would.
Okay, first of all, any and all Dongwoo!appreciation is FLAWLESS but also: flailing over Woohyun knowing most intimately!
It was not like Woohyun to be possessive of Dongwoo - not in such a public setting. But watching that woman look at him as if he weren’t even there, as if Dongwoo’s gorgeous body existed just for her in that moment, filled him with a sudden emptiness. He wanted to run to her, to explain who he was, to sing for her - to make her see him, Nam Woohyun, her idol.
I LOVELOVELOVE how at first it seems like the possessiveness comes just from Woohyun not wanting this woman to check out his Dongwoo and then NO. It’s really about Woohyun not having the female gaze he lives for anymore and I FREAKED OUT because NAM WOOHYUN WHO EVEN ARE YOU. (And I sort of love how we both know that even if Woohyun was with a guy-Yeol, Gyu, Dongwoo, whoever-he’d still crave that female attention in ways no other guy does. NAM WOOHYUN HOW ARE YOU REAL?)
only Sunggyu had really noticed when he stopped
TROLOLOLOL BEST.
he had put in a valiant effort with the heels Sungjong gleefully brought him, but he couldn’t stand in them, let alone walk
I HEAR YOU BB. NO HEELS FOR ME AND WOOHYUN.
It made no sense to him (the first shopping experience resulting in him lying on Sunggyu’s bed in the fetal position, Dongwoo curled up behind him and Sunggyu nervously flitting around, trying to stop him from crying with food and stuffed animals and basically anything he could get his hands on) that this body could not do the things he knew he could do before.
Nam Woohyun could do anything he set his mind to. Except this. Except be this person he wasn’t.
I AM FREAKING OUT OMG THIS IS SO PERFECTLY WOOHYUN AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO WEEP LIKE A BABY.
And let me take a short break to say: I suspect that Woohyun’s new body isn’t nearly as unappealing as he thinks it is, he’s just a completely unreliable narrator at this point. He may not make the world’s prettiest girl like Sungyeol, but I can’t imagine a Woohyun who isn’t attractive in some way or another.
Woohyun’s body did what he told it to do - it did what was needed. Sometimes there was a fight, sometimes Woohyun thought he’d never enjoy food again, would never leave the gym, would never find the perfection he was seeking and so desperately needed. But after some time his body - his true body - and he had to some sort of accord. He had learned to work with it, instead of fighting it. Now, he felt like he had to start all over.
YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES. YES. YES SOME MORE.
Woohyun felt tears burning the back of his eyes at that look and turned away. Dongwoo didn’t see the woman, he just looked happy to be in a public place with Woohyun, holding his hand without fear.
OH BABIES.
But he just couldn’t keep up the facade in that body - that didn’t listen to him. That slumped when he told it to straighten, that was awkward where Woohyun was usually so poised. He felt like a small child, his limbs completely out of his control, his body separate from him.
And everywhere they went, he saw the same thing: women ogling Dongwoo and smirking, laughing at Woohyun.
I just do not know how to handle how much I love both of them. I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IT.
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This so makes up for the weeks of ~doubt and fretting.
THE SOUND I MADE WAS NOT HUMAN.
You are too good to me.
♥
I LOVELOVELOVE how at first it seems like the possessiveness comes just from Woohyun not wanting this woman to check out his Dongwoo
I tried to show how he notices for the /first time maybe how the female gaze can be objectifying and then...
and then NO.
.. and then no: it's about feeling a /lack because he's not being objectified, too.
It’s really about Woohyun not having the female gaze he lives for anymore and I FREAKED OUT because NAM WOOHYUN WHO EVEN ARE YOU.
I sometimes seriously doubt his existence. (and then I think of how much we talk and write and create with him - and I think, maybe it doesn't matter)
(And I sort of love how we both know that even if Woohyun was with a guy-Yeol, Gyu, Dongwoo, whoever-he’d still crave that female attention in ways no other guy does. NAM WOOHYUN HOW ARE YOU REAL?)
*g*
This was the ~point of all of this. THANK YOU FOR INTRODUCING ME TO HIM AND GUH. For being there and talking to me about this because! I couldn't have written this at all without you. #worships
I HEAR YOU BB. NO HEELS FOR ME AND WOOHYUN.
I see female!Woohyun as this ridiculously gorgeous tomboy - who is slightly uncoordinated, maybe, but would never, ever wear heels. (And for the most part, no bras. Fact.)
I AM FREAKING OUT OMG THIS IS SO PERFECTLY WOOHYUN AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO WEEP LIKE A BABY.
I seriously don't know what to do with myself right now. HOW NERVOUS WAS I THAT I COULDN'T DO THIS??
Girlfriend, I know you can completely relate to this, but I was having so many ~feels about writing this.
Infinite = new fandom
RPF = completely new gener
gender!swap = what even?
men/men/men = completely new for me
It's like I decided to cut my teeth on as many new writing challenges as I could - all at once. And it was SO nerve-wracking. (Most of the last few weeks was me staring at this and thinking "there's no way this going to work" and then ignoring it for days.)
I suspect that Woohyun’s new body isn’t nearly as unappealing as he thinks it is, he’s just a completely unreliable narrator at this point.
Woohyun is about as reliable narrator as Damon Salvatore. They should exchange notes on twisting reality.
YES SOME MORE.
Woohyun/body-image = my angst!otp
I just do not know how to handle how much I love both of them. I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IT.
PREACHING TO THE BLOODY CHOIR - WE ARE BLOODY HERE - BLOODY WITH THE TEARS WE HAVE SHED FOR OUR LOVE FOR THESE CHILDREN.
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THANK YOU FOR INTRODUCING ME TO HIM AND GUH. For being there and talking to me about this because! I couldn't have written this at all without you. #worships
YOU ARE SO WELCOME. Thank you for plunging into this fandom with me! #worships back
I see female!Woohyun as this ridiculously gorgeous tomboy - who is slightly uncoordinated, maybe, but would never, ever wear heels. (And for the most part, no bras. Fact.)
This makes me really, really happy. (BOO BRAS. I don't always wear one--and can get away with it because I'm very small-chested--and I thoroughly approve of this.)
Infinite = new fandom
RPF = completely new gener
gender!swap = what even?
men/men/men = completely new for me
It's like I decided to cut my teeth on as many new writing challenges as I could - all at once. And it was SO nerve-wracking. (Most of the last few weeks was me staring at this and thinking "there's no way this going to work" and then ignoring it for days.)
NO WONDER YOU WERE FREAKING OUT! That is a whole lot to take on, and the fact that you did this awesomely with it is so happy!
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