Nothing too important...Just my depressing veiws about realtionships!!
I don't really have anything important to say..I am kind of bummed out and i'm in one of those thinking moods which I hate!!! hmmm..tonight was pretty eventful! From a soccer game,to Jack in the Box, the Student union..Anna and I taking a long walk to main gate square by ourselves at 10 at night..to swimming late late at night and eating PB&J YUMMY!! It was pretty fun..but most of the night I just had those nagging thoughts in my mind of random things, that made me think, and they got me kinda sad and thinking about my past!!
I get sad when I think about relationships..I've been screwed over many times..and it makes me fear a relationship in a sense..even though I'm not in one..or EVEN close to one..It just makes me think about having one..wanting one and not wanting one, not really sure I have fear of it! :( I am lonely, I don't know!! I want to find a good guy..I know a few of them...but I dont know!!! However, I know that I don't need a guy to make me happy!! It just sucks when you've found a great awesome guy....but nothing seems to happen or, it's just stuck in one stage or something of that nature!! If that makes any sense hah it's kind of confusing!!! I guess I have to have patients lol!! All in due time!!
I also missed some of my friends tonight!! =( It seemed weird without them there...My friends mean so much to me..I love them and care about them, they all know who they are!!! =)I am thankful for each and everyone of you! Love you all!! hugs and kisses!!!
I get sad when I think about relationships..I've been screwed over many times..and it makes me fear a relationship in a sense..even though I'm not in one..or EVEN close to one..It just makes me think about having one..wanting one and not wanting one, not really sure I have fear of it! :( I am lonely, I don't know!! I want to find a good guy..I know a few of them...but I dont know!!! However, I know that I don't need a guy to make me happy!! It just sucks when you've found a great awesome guy....but nothing seems to happen or, it's just stuck in one stage or something of that nature!! If that makes any sense hah it's kind of confusing!!! I guess I have to have patients lol!! All in due time!!
I also missed some of my friends tonight!! =( It seemed weird without them there...My friends mean so much to me..I love them and care about them, they all know who they are!!! =)I am thankful for each and everyone of you! Love you all!! hugs and kisses!!!