People can be real shits.

[kutekitty1981]

Sheila is pissy because no-one told her that we were doing a collection and having a party for Bev

Comments

[kutekitty1981]

In a way, I know that, because she is my mum and first and foremost she's meant to be this great comforting entity when I was a kid and this great arguing entity when I was a teenage pain in the ass. I think mostly I'm upset that I'm never going to know some things about her, because she's never going to be able to tell me, and I want to know more so that I can keep more of her with me when she's gone.

I know that she's never eaten a cheeseburger, never done drugs (I know my dad has, but I don't know what or in what quantity), she's only been drunk once and she used to smoke in university. I don't need to know that she's ever been as dumb as I have been, I don't want to know that she loved other men before my dad...but I do want to know more stupid little humanising things about her. And yet, when I find out stupid little humanising things, they as often disappoint me as amuse me. I know that she thought disparagingly of the idea that her mother's greatest ambition in life was to be a wife and mother. I know that she talks shit behind her siblings' backs. I know that's human, but it's not very nice. I know her second pregnancy - that is, me - wasn't planned but was welcomed when it happened. That's kinda nice to know. And fun to tease my dad about! I know she wanted me to go further with my education than I did, and she wanted me to be more musical than I am.

Maybe I actually know a decent amount about her.

[anagaharad]

I think you might know more than you think you know but less than you would like to know.

Never eaten a cheeseburger? Not even as a child?

[kutekitty1981]

Nope. One of the things she decided she wanted to do when she first got really ill was to eat a cheeseburger for the first time in her life. She never managed it though.