Update on mum and stuff
Went to see mum today, with dad and Jane (mum's sister) and Gray.
She wasn't anything like as bad as I'd expected. She was able to sit up in bed, and walk around a little, with a walking frame. She's shaking badly, in her hands, for no reason. As in...obviously, the tumours are causing it, but it's not just when she's lifting something or anything, it's all the time. She said one of the doctors told her that her treatment is effective in 20% of cases, and that's good by their standards. Next appointment with Dr Peat is on Tuesday so she can make further enquiries about that then.
I can hardly believe how much she's deteriorated in the past six months. Even more scary is how easy it is to get used to this being normal, how easy it is to find her able to sit up in bed under her own power to be impressive. Fucking illness. Hate it. Hate it!
Gray suggested I should tell mum that we're planning on calling our first girl child Sarah, because it's her middle name. I think mum'd freak that we're planning on having kids together so might hold off on that one for now. She's still trying to not get too attached to Gray in case he...does an Adam. We'd just argue and the conversation would end badly. Far better to have more memories like today, which was fun and light-hearted, and work out telling her, or not, later. Like after I'm divorced and we're living together. If she's still around then, which isn't certain.
I'm gonna make food for dad tomorrow. I can't take the place of his wife. I can make sure he gets a hot meal after 12 hours out of the house when the last thing he feels like is cooking. Thank god for microwaves!
She wasn't anything like as bad as I'd expected. She was able to sit up in bed, and walk around a little, with a walking frame. She's shaking badly, in her hands, for no reason. As in...obviously, the tumours are causing it, but it's not just when she's lifting something or anything, it's all the time. She said one of the doctors told her that her treatment is effective in 20% of cases, and that's good by their standards. Next appointment with Dr Peat is on Tuesday so she can make further enquiries about that then.
I can hardly believe how much she's deteriorated in the past six months. Even more scary is how easy it is to get used to this being normal, how easy it is to find her able to sit up in bed under her own power to be impressive. Fucking illness. Hate it. Hate it!
Gray suggested I should tell mum that we're planning on calling our first girl child Sarah, because it's her middle name. I think mum'd freak that we're planning on having kids together so might hold off on that one for now. She's still trying to not get too attached to Gray in case he...does an Adam. We'd just argue and the conversation would end badly. Far better to have more memories like today, which was fun and light-hearted, and work out telling her, or not, later. Like after I'm divorced and we're living together. If she's still around then, which isn't certain.
I'm gonna make food for dad tomorrow. I can't take the place of his wife. I can make sure he gets a hot meal after 12 hours out of the house when the last thing he feels like is cooking. Thank god for microwaves!