Oh god please I want it to end.
I want to die. That would be so much easier, you see. I wouldn't have to hurt because Adam's going. I wouldn't have to be scared because he gets so angry and frustrated that he throws things. I wouldn't have to go out and sit in the car for 15 fucking minutes just so I don't join with the throwing. One of us has to be grown up, you see. One of us has to cope and get on with life. Why does it have to be me? Claire wants him in Chester. She wants to be the one who is giving all the support, she wants to be the important one. She's fucking welcome to be.