is weird. I thought I was going to be way past this at this age, you know... the age. Past 40. I thought I was going to be all like, "adult" and "grown up" and "smooth man person who has a hot chick and has lots of monkey fun, and a home and family and bla bla bla" and there's none of that here. like... it's weird that I so am living, in actual ( Read more... )

I want to cry. it's as if all the odds are not just stacked against me, but I'm being shamed into a life of failure and perpetual 'you could have/should have, but you're only a disgrace.'

I don't know if anyone will take me serious to get a job ever in any art thing ever. ;; I wouldn't hire me, why would anyone else. gosh, i'm horrible. /)q_q(\

I've been wondering about the changes in a person's susceptibility to suggestion, persuasion, and coercion as they become sleep deprived. The idea came to me as I realized that with little sleep I am not very prudent about objectively considering the things I see and hear. Perhaps I might be wrong but there has to be some kind of change; after a ( Read more... )