Everywhere I look...
Just need to vent a bit. A friend announced their pregnancy this morning and I find myself adding her to a long list of girls I know with little ones on the way.
Maybe it's my biological clock, but I find myself so very jealous. I'll be 29 in just a few more months and even though I'm in a relationship that is headed towards marriage, I'm having a hard time with patience. I suppose it'll be a case of being patient but I don't have to like it.
The most difficult part of it is I'm surrounded by couples younger than myself who seem to have it all together. I know there are things going on I'll never see, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm frustrated with myself. For a year now I've been working at Chickfila, a fast-food joint, trying to find something better. A job is a job and I'm not ashamed, but I need more than this!
I wonder that....well, I guess today may be a good day to spend extra time with God. I need for Him to talk to me, to reassure me of His providence. All things are in His timing but I'm so very American in the way I think about time - I want it now. I want the convenience of the now, instant gratification.
I have a lot to do today, but maybe I should make it a day with God.
Maybe it's my biological clock, but I find myself so very jealous. I'll be 29 in just a few more months and even though I'm in a relationship that is headed towards marriage, I'm having a hard time with patience. I suppose it'll be a case of being patient but I don't have to like it.
The most difficult part of it is I'm surrounded by couples younger than myself who seem to have it all together. I know there are things going on I'll never see, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm frustrated with myself. For a year now I've been working at Chickfila, a fast-food joint, trying to find something better. A job is a job and I'm not ashamed, but I need more than this!
I wonder that....well, I guess today may be a good day to spend extra time with God. I need for Him to talk to me, to reassure me of His providence. All things are in His timing but I'm so very American in the way I think about time - I want it now. I want the convenience of the now, instant gratification.
I have a lot to do today, but maybe I should make it a day with God.