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Ino left little things around my apartment after she moved out. Some leftover cooking, half a bottle of shampoo, hair ties, and a perfume of sorts. (Which smells suspiciously like a kind of aphrodisiac, but I'm not certain.) I didn't quite have the heart to put them away when she left, and I'm still left without the inclination.
I've been thinking about Asuma a lot. He's been out on a long-term mission for the past few months with no telling when he'll return. I keep wondering if he got the news. How he got it. How he's handling it. How he's feeling. If he's lonely.
I wish I was there with him, even for a little while. Just to make sure he's okay. To help him in any way I can. I'm just so... worried.
But I'm here and he's who-knows-where. Both of us where we're supposed to be. My students have been feeling the effects of this tragedy as well, and I need to be here to watch over them just as much as I'd want to be anywhere else. They're being very strong however, and I'm very proud of all of them. Kiba has me worried the most, as it seems he was the most attached of the three to Ino. I'll be constantly up thinking of what I could be doing for him--for all of them.
It's times like this when I just want to gather everyone up and take care of them. I just want to make everything better; the future brighter, so they have something to live happily for. ...Heh. I suppose this would be my maternal instincts rearing its head. It's comforting and lousy at the same time, as it makes me feel like anything I do isn't quite enough.
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Kakashi manages to do more than enough, however. I'm guilty to admit that I overheard the conversation he had with Sakura, in which he was able to guide and comfort her so easily. At least her made it seem easy.
I was surprised but how much he opened up and shared with his student about himself--his past. I felt so guilty listening, knowing I wasn't supposed to be hearing this. But I also felt I couldn't move, or else I'd be discovered and ruin the moment. If anything, I stayed still for Sakura's sake. So she could receive that wisdom.
I've never really thought of Kakashi being wise before. Talented and intelligent, but... Somehow I didn't think "genius" and "wise" necessarily had anything to do with each other; and they probably still don't, but... Well, chalk up another amazing quality of Kakashi's.
It's strange. At one point, thinking that would have made me irritated or jealous, but saying it now... There's only admiration. I wonder when that changed. It probably doesn't matter. I probably won't ever see him quite as I once did before anyway.
Things would have probably still been better if I hadn't gotten caught by him after Sakura left though...
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[Kakashi Only]
I'm still sorry about accidentally eavesdropping on you and Sakura the other day. ...Are you sure you're not too mad?
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On another note entirely however, I'm also really getting ticked off. Ibiki's gone. After all I did to help that idiot, he goes and does something like... like.....!
Kei, I was serious about my request. If you find out anything on Ibiki, let me know as soon as you can. I'll help you drag his sorry, sick---well, you get the idea. I'll help get him back. I need to have a long "talk" with him. That idiot.
I've been thinking about Asuma a lot. He's been out on a long-term mission for the past few months with no telling when he'll return. I keep wondering if he got the news. How he got it. How he's handling it. How he's feeling. If he's lonely.
I wish I was there with him, even for a little while. Just to make sure he's okay. To help him in any way I can. I'm just so... worried.
But I'm here and he's who-knows-where. Both of us where we're supposed to be. My students have been feeling the effects of this tragedy as well, and I need to be here to watch over them just as much as I'd want to be anywhere else. They're being very strong however, and I'm very proud of all of them. Kiba has me worried the most, as it seems he was the most attached of the three to Ino. I'll be constantly up thinking of what I could be doing for him--for all of them.
It's times like this when I just want to gather everyone up and take care of them. I just want to make everything better; the future brighter, so they have something to live happily for. ...Heh. I suppose this would be my maternal instincts rearing its head. It's comforting and lousy at the same time, as it makes me feel like anything I do isn't quite enough.
[Private]
Kakashi manages to do more than enough, however. I'm guilty to admit that I overheard the conversation he had with Sakura, in which he was able to guide and comfort her so easily. At least her made it seem easy.
I was surprised but how much he opened up and shared with his student about himself--his past. I felt so guilty listening, knowing I wasn't supposed to be hearing this. But I also felt I couldn't move, or else I'd be discovered and ruin the moment. If anything, I stayed still for Sakura's sake. So she could receive that wisdom.
I've never really thought of Kakashi being wise before. Talented and intelligent, but... Somehow I didn't think "genius" and "wise" necessarily had anything to do with each other; and they probably still don't, but... Well, chalk up another amazing quality of Kakashi's.
It's strange. At one point, thinking that would have made me irritated or jealous, but saying it now... There's only admiration. I wonder when that changed. It probably doesn't matter. I probably won't ever see him quite as I once did before anyway.
Things would have probably still been better if I hadn't gotten caught by him after Sakura left though...
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[Kakashi Only]
I'm still sorry about accidentally eavesdropping on you and Sakura the other day. ...Are you sure you're not too mad?
[/Kakashi Only]
On another note entirely however, I'm also really getting ticked off. Ibiki's gone. After all I did to help that idiot, he goes and does something like... like.....!
Kei, I was serious about my request. If you find out anything on Ibiki, let me know as soon as you can. I'll help you drag his sorry, sick---well, you get the idea. I'll help get him back. I need to have a long "talk" with him. That idiot.