maturing daw..
guess i've converted to being nocturnal again..
can't really adjust to a decent bedtime.. its not like I have to go to work tomorrow LOL
but yeah.. I have to.. my viral babies need my constant sterile attention LOL despite mommy's a little short on funds again.. wah...
me hate having to travel so far..
but then again.. what plays as a broken record over and over whenever I think about getting lazy for work, my teacher saying..
"yung iba nga dyan nagpapabayad para magawa yung mga ginagawa nyo e, di bale, kahit nga mga nagtapos ng medicine, ito rin ang hinahanap hanap nilang malaman or matuto..."
wah.. at least theres a point to all of this..
I may not be getting paid (not that my skills are worth paying for X|) but neither am I paying for the use of anything.. (waste waste waste galore LOL)
use a plastic pipet, throw away, make a mistake peeling the plastic off, throw away, hold a pipet on the wrong end, throw away, touch the mouth of the media bottle with the pipet, throw away..
well..
at least for some stuff we just brushed, flame galore with this mega-ass foot pedal controlled bunsen burner LOL
got burned once but thats for the love of a pyromaniac LOL
I could actually picture myself doing this for actual work.. but then again, I have to get through my thesis to even consider it as a job option..
just get through this and I could maybe get a recommendadtion.. for med school? don't know if it works that way...
good thing st. luke's is rich and all I have to do is make an order for anything I need.. yey, I don't pay for anything..
and on occassion.. dr. matias (apparently, he's supposed to be some famous doctor I should be familiar with daw) gives a grand pakain.. so at least the lab isn't all boring and nerdy as percieved to be..
still.. my foundation determination wise in pushing through to medicine is still shaky..
NMAT results come this may.. so does my timezone gold card LOL XD
getting to platinum is impossible since never in my life would I see myself spending an accumulated amount of 25K on arcade.. unless maybe if I kept my card for like 10 years.. or if I become kick-ass rich and splurge on credits for some lame web cam on stacker.. LOL
I'm getting the courage to try more difficult songs on the dance game.. and unlike all those bar grabbing fast steppers, I'm actually dancing LOL its like my only form of active exercise.. and when I'm through with a session, its almost as if I just came from a work-out at fitness first XD
hons staying up late for a party at his house.. wala lang.. random text message about him not wanting to think about when he has to leave for the states for work.. it makes me think about it too.. by then, i'd hopefully be in med school..
its going to be a trial of trust.. since aside from the long distance relationship we have now.. we're going to be farther away from each other.. for an indefinite period of time.. many things may happen.. and my defense mechanism kicks in by already expecting the worse..
so if those things do happen.. i'd've already had a bit of tolerance for the implications of the consequences... not that I think he'd be gullible to lean in that direction.. but there are certain factors we just can't control and the only explanation to be given is that: it just happened..
ouch.. I think thats a bit too serious of a topic to be pondering on this hour..
*yawn*