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Different ideas concur in the same spot even to an unntural extent. On one hand .. this new case. Even.. if it might not be as denial as the previeous ones it disturbs me. Or perhaps isn't the case on its own, but it is the situation as a whole giving me those feelings.
Even if the others reassure.. the differences between .. myself and him ..still.. I believe its something to be solved by my own and anything external will only be temporaly comforting.
Once again, the thoughts revolving around my human life are left behind.. by everything involving my youkai existance.
Endless nights thinking about it .. are truly starting to be a weight. I feel the tiredness and the lack of sleep.
And .. I am still in the seek of a present for my mother.
So far mostly everything is kept for me and no one else. The natural serene facade is what I show them.. but I realise not everyone believes. Im sure Hiei has already noticed it. However, he won't say a word about it. Not before the others at least.
I want to finish with this case as soon as possible. We need more data.. and a lure. Just wished KoEnma gave us more clues in the beggining, but he always keeps the most important for the middle/end of the mission. Im already used to it..
Even if the others reassure.. the differences between .. myself and him ..still.. I believe its something to be solved by my own and anything external will only be temporaly comforting.
Once again, the thoughts revolving around my human life are left behind.. by everything involving my youkai existance.
Endless nights thinking about it .. are truly starting to be a weight. I feel the tiredness and the lack of sleep.
And .. I am still in the seek of a present for my mother.
So far mostly everything is kept for me and no one else. The natural serene facade is what I show them.. but I realise not everyone believes. Im sure Hiei has already noticed it. However, he won't say a word about it. Not before the others at least.
I want to finish with this case as soon as possible. We need more data.. and a lure. Just wished KoEnma gave us more clues in the beggining, but he always keeps the most important for the middle/end of the mission. Im already used to it..