Thoughts
Sometimes I wonder the extent of my feelings. Even if I express care.. the oeverwhelming frigid emotions tend to become more and real. Perhaps its Youko's fault, he lacked always remained imbued in such cruel nature. I don't want to believe ..one day I'll be like him again.
..That goes against the principles of future. I don't want to be back to what I used to be before. Because the world around me has shifted.. it is no longer the vicious land of the Makai where I used to raid. I just hope its a vague idea of mine.. lacking of a deep meaning. ...But whenver Youko's involved, it will never be merely superficial.
Regardless that uneasiness, I have other things to attend to. I feel soon we will have to assist another mission, I better find something for my mother's birthday... my stepfather proposed to go out for dinner.. then the gift I need better not dissapoint her. Even if she will ever look at me with her kindred gaze.
..That goes against the principles of future. I don't want to be back to what I used to be before. Because the world around me has shifted.. it is no longer the vicious land of the Makai where I used to raid. I just hope its a vague idea of mine.. lacking of a deep meaning. ...But whenver Youko's involved, it will never be merely superficial.
Regardless that uneasiness, I have other things to attend to. I feel soon we will have to assist another mission, I better find something for my mother's birthday... my stepfather proposed to go out for dinner.. then the gift I need better not dissapoint her. Even if she will ever look at me with her kindred gaze.