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[kuraku]

I've been wanting for a long time to see someone and just tell them about my year. I was thinking about a priest or even my doctor. As I was laying in bed thinking I realized why I want to do that so badly. I don't want help or even sympathy, I want validation. I want someone who knows a lot of people and knows what hardships people go through, to tell me that I've had a rough year and I have reasons to be paranoid, sad, and distressed. For some reason, telling myself and having other people tell me isn't enough. :/

In other news, why am I awake right now?