Thoughts of the Mindless
yeah...bored as hell...that's why i'm up at 3 in the mornin...updatin my journal...cause DEREK SAID SO....lookin for shit to download. eff-in Yellowcard..damn...that violinist is a eff-in beast..hah...haven't used that since i've been up here..in SUBURBIA..it's so eff-in white up here i'm goin colour-blind...(no offense, mates). i just noticed that since i moved up here, i cut back on my cuss-in. yeah....there's a really, really, really, REALLY, good chance that i might be goin' to Greece or where ever for somethin' with my aunt/uncle's company (E.T. Industries). some computer thing. i'm gonna go up there this Sunday after the BBQ at my house, go to.....Harlow...? N.J., to get some training in programing some software...i think. i'm probably gonna be up there for about a week.....yay...a week...i think my uncle said that it's only gonna take about 2 days for training...but i'm gonna stay up there for a while...hang out with my cousin and her friends.....isolate myself once again...cause you people know how i hate.....well...people...hahah. my mom was like, "are you sure you wanna go over there? with all of the terrorist threats..."....my reply...."i don't care"..hahahahah...i really couldn't care, all i'm sayin' is, if i go down, i'm goin' down with a fight, y'knahmean? i've been so friggen' bored, i'm kinda happy that i'm goin', if i go at all, cause i'll be able to get away from everyone, ya know? maybe put my mind to rest for a while about some things. so...this BBQ thing that my dad is having on Sunday...yhep...it's supposed to be a family thing, and he invites one of my friends (Helen), whom i saw at PennDOT while i was gettin' my ID. i swear that me old man is trying to hook me up with her....she's nice an' all...but...deng...if i wanna be with someone...let me do it by myself...ya know? the last thing i need is for him to control yet another part of my life. when i was still in the city, i kept saying to myself, "i'm gonna run away" over and over again, just cause he or whoever else thinks that they know what's best for me. how can you know what's best for someone else when you don't even know what's best for you? no one can know what's best for others. i believe that a person has to figure out what's best for his/herself. so back to the family...BBQ...whatever....so while he's gone and invited Helen...i might as well invite some of my other friends...so i went ahead and invited Derek......and Cherie...if he wants...and whoever...invited Shawn and Felicia if they're not workin' during the day, cause i barely ever hang out with them. i told my cousin that he and his sister could come if they wanted, but they're going to Minnesota....DRIVING A CONVERSION VAN....(13 miles per gallon...approx.)...with the family..what joy..so yhep...i don't got nothin' against Helen or nothin', it's just that i need my other peoples to hang out with too. i haven't been out for about a couple of weeks now. just cause i didn't want to read this insurance book, but now that i'm gettin training and whatever, i don't have to read it...sickenin (yet another word i haven't used in a while)