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Title: Because of You
Pairing: Donghae/ eunhyuk
Genre: Romance, Drama, Fluff, Angst
Rating: NC17 Warning: Handjob (might fail)
Summary: Hyukjae was saved when his father was murdered. That is when he come across with Donghae and Kyuhyun. Up to that moment his life starts to change. Beta-ed by starbursts132. thank you..:)
Chapter 16
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Siwon is eyeing Hyukjae carefully. “Yes.” That makes Siwon sigh. “I think you’re going to regret this, Hyuk. He loves you. I believe you know that very well.” “I do. But I need some time. Him too. He deserve to be happy, Siwon.” “And what make you think he’s happy without you?” Hyukjae looks away. He can’t find any brilliant answer to that. Siwon pats his friend’s back. “It’s not too late to cancel whatever you’re planning to do. And I do think you should tell him what’s on your mind. He has the right to know. May I know why are you doing this?” Hyukjae looks away without giving Siwon any answer.
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Hyukjae is currently waiting for his flight to take off with Heechul. They are sitting in the boarding hall next to each other. Most of the time, Hyukjae remains silent. He is looking at all the pictures and videos that he took before his departure. To be honest, Hyukjae is one terrible liar. So to have Sungmin, Kyuhyun and Donghae didn’t realize his lies was a great success. Sure he will never know what will happen to them three after they found out about it. He cried everyday and night when he thought about how he is going to leave them after what they had done to him. Never once they ignore his presents. He knows how great the love they have for him. Especially Donghae. He is one selfish guy. He thought he is the bad guy here. It’s not like he forgets about what the three of them had done to him. He cherishes them all. Every moment when he is with them. He loves them three so dearly. This is one decision he has to make so he will know what exactly he wants for his life. What is the best for him and Donghae. But deep inside, he regrets his decision already. Heechul notice Hyukjae is awfully quiet and sighing all the time. He pats Hyukjae’s thigh. “It’s not too late for us to walk out of this hall. But it will be too late if we’re on the plane.” She said. Hyukjae just smiles at her. “I just…” “Being stupid. Come on, Hyuk. I know you know what’s best for you.” Heechul try to persuade Hyukjae to cancel his plan. “Just this once. Please, noona. Just this one time. When I come back and he forgot about me then, I will give up and cry over my stupidities. But I have to do this. He has the right to be happy.” Hyukjae said, controlling his tears from rolling down his eyes. “Seriously, Hyuk. He’s a great man. I do know he’s going to wait for you. I do know he’s going to be so devastated by your stupid decision. And I do know you’re going to regret this.” What else can she say? This is Hyukjae’s decision. She already told him that million times. Just like Siwon, Heechul can’t find what is the reason Hyukjae decided to leave. For now all she can do is be by his side and make sure he will come back. Their flight took off on time. Hyukjae set his eyes on the white clouds. His brain busy picturing what will Donghae, Sungmin and Kyuhyun do after they learn about his sudden disappearance. All he can hope for is for them not to hate him.
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Flashback
Siwon’s uncle told him his about his flight date and time, where he will stay during his training and every single detail he need to know. Hyukjae hides his suitcase so that Donghae will never know about it. All the documents that he needed have been taken care of by Siwon’s uncle. He left Donghae, Sungmin and Kyuhyun a letter goodbye. That is the only thing he can do. He can’t tell them face to face. He is afraid to see any sign of sadness and disapproval from them. Two days before his flight, he became too clingy with Donghae. He hugged him everywhere and anywhere. That is so not his normal behavior. He talked a lot to Kyuhyun and Sungmin too. He even planned for four of them to spend times together whenever they have free time. He also took a lot of pictures and videos. He will record everything they did. Especially Donghae’s sleeping face and the moment he woke up. The night before his flight, Hyukjae was sent home early after the staffs in the café throw him a party. On his way home, he stops by at Sungmin’s place and stay there for a while. Just talking. Before he leaves, he hugs Sungmin long enough. “You want hyung to send you home? You must be tired.” “I’m okay, hyung. Thank you hyung… For everything.” He said before he released the hug. Sungmin pat his head like he always do. “Let me send you home. I go get my keys.” ***** When he was home, Donghae was watching movie in the living room. “You’re home early?” Donghae approached him and kissed him on the forehead. “Yeah.” Hyukjae snuggled closer to Donghae when they both on the couch again. “Have you eaten?” Hyukjae nods his head. “How was your day at work?” “Okay..” Hyukjae answered lazily. Donghae rubbed his back gently and Hyukjae let out a sigh. “You tired?” “No. I just love when you do that.” Hyukjae look up and Donghae kissed him sweetly. “I love you.” Donghae said and gave Hyukjae another peck. “I love you.” Hyukjae move himself so he is now sitting on Donghae’s lap, lips attached in sweet passionate kisses. Donghae hold his waist firmly and his hand started to move up and down his back. After a while, Donghae unwillingly pulled back. “We have to stop. Or I won’t be able to control myself.” Hyukjae looks at Donghae with sadness in his eyes. Donghae is always the one who has to hold back because he was afraid that Hyukjae will feel uncomfortable. Years of being together, Donghae never forced him to do intimate stuff with him. He feels so bad for Donghae. With that thought Hyukjae pressed another kiss on Donghae’s lips. Nibbling his lower lips and biting gently. “Where did you learn that?” He can see Donghae’s flushed face and his grip on Hyukjae’s waist is a little too hard. Hyukjae took another kiss from Donghae; make them breathless. “Seriously, baby. I love you. But we really need to stop or--” Hyukjae silences him again by kissing him hard. Not willing to give Donghae any room of protest. “Just let me do this.” he said. “But, baby..” Another kiss lands on Donghae’s lips. Hyukjae gently bites on Donghae’s lips and slide his tongue inside, caressing Donghae’s hot cavern. Hyukjae didn’t take control for long. Soon enough, Donghae gained dominance in the kiss. His hand slowly sneaks inside of Hyukjae’s shirt and started to draw random patterns on his back. Hyukjae moans at the contact. Donghae begins to suck Hyukjae’s lips and tongue hungrily. No backing out this time, Hyuk. You started it. This is for Donghae. Even though the kiss is hot, wet and sloppy, Donghae still hadn’t done anything more than that. Sensing the hesitancy in Donghae’s actions, Hyukjae starts to grind their lower region together. So painfully slow. As if he was teasing DOnghae and tells him he’s okay. “Shit!!Uhh.. Baby…I …we…h-have to..uhhhh….s-st-stop..” Donghae fists his hand and closes his eyes tight. He tries to gain control of his own body. He doesn’t know how much longer he can control himself if Hyukjae keep doing what he did. Hyukjae cup Donghae’s face and kissed him again. “Hae, let me do this, Hae. Please.” “But what about..” “I’ll be okay. I want to..For you.. Only you..” Donghae looks straight into Hyukjae eyes. Digging in Hyukjae’s eyes, trying to search if there any sign of fear and doubt. Surprisingly, he found none. Hyukjae hurriedly kisses Donghae; ensuring him he’s okay with it. He is afraid if Donghae stops him again he won’t be able to continue anymore. But again Donghae stop him. “Let me…” “No. Let me.” He pushed Donghae backward so Donghae’s back leans completely on the couch. He kissed Donghae like there is no tomorrow. When the need of air to breathe is so overwhelming, Hyukjae pulls back and his fingers started to play with Donghae’s buttons. Donghae continued his trail by kissing Hyukjae’s face and move his way to Hyukjae’s jawline. He starts to lick and suck on in make Hyukjae let a low, sweet moan. He then move to Hyukjae’s ears and play with his earlobe before teasing his weak spot at the back of his ears. Hyukjae mews at the feeling of Donghae’s lips and tongue on his skin. Donghae keeps dropping open mouthed kiss on his neck and shoulder before he bites down hard enough to leave a read mark on Hyukjae. “Uhh.. Hae..” Ashamed hearing himself, Hyukjae hides his face on Donghae’s shoulder while Donghae keep on teasing his sensitive spot, leaving him in a moaning mess. Hyukjae and Donghae both are going crazy. All they did is kissing but their mind feel like it’s going to blow up. Hyukjae crashed their lips together again. This time, his hand works on removing Donghae’s pants. Donghae was too focused on Hyukjae lips which make him didn’t realize that his lower region is already exposed. With a shaking hand, Hyukjae grab Donghae’s member and gives it a slow stroke. “Shit!!” Donghae buck his hips upward; meeting with Hyukjae’s hand. Knowing that he is touching him right, Hyukjae keep the slow rhythm and his lips work on Donghae’s neck. “Uhhh..hmm.. Ba..by..ahh..” DOnghae’s moans gave him more confident in what he did. His other hand start to massage Donghae’s balls and once in a while, he stroke Donghae’s with his nail and runs his thumb on the slit. Donghae throws his head back and moan loudly. He feels so helpless and so good. His body responds quickly on Hyukjae’s touch. He can’t even deny the fact that he’s actually enjoying every moment of it. Hyukjae watches Donghae’s face as his hand working on Donghae’s member. His face shows so much pleasure and the sounds that came out from Donghae’s lips are so beautiful in his ears. “Hae..” Hyukjae calls. Wanting Donghae to gives him permission to do more. “Hyukkie…” Donghae whines when Hyukjae hand on him starting to slow down. “Ahh..It feel…good, baby.” Hyukjae’s hand continues to massage his member before he starts to move faster as soon as Donghae told him that. When Hyukjae accidently dug his nail on Donghae’s slit, Donghae let out a sharp breath and his hips buck up. “Ahh… Hyu-kie..” Hyukjae’s lips immediately worked on Donghae’s neck again. He can feel Donghae’s muscle tensed under his touch. He stroke Donghae faster and more pressure o his work and make Donghae let out long srotic moans. Then he gave it a harsh tug, making Donghae gasped and his breathing became heavier than before. His end is so near. Donghae bites on Hyukjae’s shoulder to stop himself moaning out loud. Upon receiving pleasure on his groin and neck, Donghae releases his cum long and hard on Hyukjae’s hand and in between them. He breathes heavily and keeps on moaning when Hyukjae’s hand didn’t stop completely from stroking him; emptying his inside. He rests his head on the couch again, regulating his breathing. Hyukjae waits for Donghae to open his eyes and speak to him. “Hae..” DOnghae sigh before he pulls Hyukjae for more sweet kisses. “What was that for?” Donghae asks after he finally came out of his high. “Just..to say.. I love you.. And..Thank you..for everything” Donghae hugs him tight. “You’re great, baby. I love you too.” Donghae is tired after his intense orgasm. “I’m going to take a shower. You wanna join?” Donghae asks and smirking. Hyukjae push his away. “Pervert!!” and run away to his room. “Yah!! Who are you calling pervert after what you’ve done to me??”
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Present Hyukjaea smile sadly remembering their last night together. He didn’t even sleep that night. He watched Donghae’s face till morning and purposely didn’t wake him up early. Tears start to form in his eyes again. I’m sorry for what I’ve done. I love you, Donghae... Hyukjae was too immersed in his thought. Then, a hand guides his head to rest on someone’s shoulder. Heechul’s shoulder. “Sleep, Hyukkie. You need it. I’ll be here.” Heechul patted on Hyukjae’s cheek and hums a melody. Soon enough Hyukjae fall asleep with tears rolling down his eyes.
TBC
*hesitate* seriously..This is awkward..i know it’s not perfect..and not as good as what other’s have out there…it’s my first time writing this kind of genre..so…. *run away fast*
oh..and thank you again for starbursts132 for your time..i really appreciate it..*hugs*
now i know why people get upset lately..it's frustrating and i give up to keep edit my entry..huhuhuhuh