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scaryest night of my life. i was babysitting and as i was cleaning up downstairs one of the dogs started freaking out. like wimpering and just spazzing so i tryed to comfort it but it like wouldnt calm down. all of a sudden i heard banging upstairs and miggie scream. so i run upstairs and miggie is all upset and im alreay freaking out so i just try to calm her down. then like she randomly says "kait do you ever see things, like people walking around that arnt suppost to be there. cuz this lady was just walking around and i guess i got her mad so she started banging on the wall." i was like stunned. i was so scared. then she started like crying and saying how she was scared and saw her all the time and then randomly a cd started blasting i dont know from where and the volume was going up and down reall fast and miggie started screaming agin saying she was there. i was like going to start crying then the dogs started going insane and the parents were home and ran upstaris and took me home without saying a word. ahh im so shakey.
i hate thanksgiving so much. i hate my family. they treat my uncle like shit and then i take care of him and have a blast and they are always all pissy and drunk. and espially that it is at our house it will suck even more. my mom will be freaking my dad wil be lazy and i will make excuses. then my family will come over get drunk then i clean everything and serve everyone cuz im the baby out of everyone. damnit i hate it haha.
firday is going to rock. movies at erics and lee will be there. what a doll.
i feel really stupid. last night i went to bed totally happy but it never lasts. once i start talking to people again i feel stupid and used still. i guess things will just never work out and i will always get turned into the bad one or the ass hole. maybe i am. god i hate myself right now i cnat take it.
xoxo
kait
i hate thanksgiving so much. i hate my family. they treat my uncle like shit and then i take care of him and have a blast and they are always all pissy and drunk. and espially that it is at our house it will suck even more. my mom will be freaking my dad wil be lazy and i will make excuses. then my family will come over get drunk then i clean everything and serve everyone cuz im the baby out of everyone. damnit i hate it haha.
firday is going to rock. movies at erics and lee will be there. what a doll.
i feel really stupid. last night i went to bed totally happy but it never lasts. once i start talking to people again i feel stupid and used still. i guess things will just never work out and i will always get turned into the bad one or the ass hole. maybe i am. god i hate myself right now i cnat take it.
xoxo
kait