all your base are belong to us
havnt updated in a while. ive been in a bad mood this entire weekend so i really wasnt up to writing. lately ive seemed to be on the edge about everything. first off, id like to apologize to ashleigh for jumping down her throat, when it was really my own insecurities i had to deal with. therefore, im sorry ash. and mike, i owe him a HUGE apology for everything ive done to him this weekend. i was behaving stupidly and im really sorry. it wsa time for katie to take a reality check and realize that the world doesnt revolve around her. everyones got problems so sometimes ive gotta learn to suck it up and be more of a help to people, rather than a useless lump of complaints. i guess ive just been feeling like im not needed anywhere lately. my sister comes to me asking me to not go on this family trip to florida this summer, shed rather her friend went than me. i mean, i doubt that when she said that she was a hundred percent serious, but it just kinda upset me to know that im not really wanted. and plus a bunch of other things has gotten me kinda upset with my relationship with everyone in my house. im just not happy. a lot of it is self inflicted though. i suppose if i were more sociable towards them, everyone would be happier with me, making me happier. they dont deserve to be ignored and treated badly by me. ive just been REALLY antisocial lately when it comes to my family, and majority of people. honestly, i think i need to stop hanging out with mike so often. ive noticed that im becoming less happy with myself, when all i have to hang out with is him. ive gotta start doing things with other people...but who? all of my friends are out of high school anyway. sometimes i wish i took more of an effort to make friends with people in my grade. its too late now though. i like my friends a lot..just sometimes it makes it hard when most of them dont even go to the school.
its been nice talking to jason lately, he seems to be going through a lot of the same stuff that i am right now. i like knowing that im not the only one who cant get anything right in his/her head. however, i think we both need to find happier people to lift our spirits, sometimes it seems as if we only keep bringing eachother down. thats what mike and ashleigh are for :) and while i dont show it all the time, i really do appreciate them very much. i try to give good advice though, i hope im doing an okay job.
today mike came to my house to bring me to school. it was funny. he always makes me feel so insignifigant when hes in one of his moods. hes just so domineering with his arms crossed standing tall, just waiting for someone to do something to provoke him. no matter how much he complains, i know he enjoys it. if only randy were here to walk through the doors, and the two of em start sparring. then jon comes in with his magic cards, then they take over the back of the library. last year was clearly awesome. so thankyou mike for making my morning special. :) speaking of the randyman, he comes home in 17 days.
and brownie-STOP BEING A BABY. jesus.
its been nice talking to jason lately, he seems to be going through a lot of the same stuff that i am right now. i like knowing that im not the only one who cant get anything right in his/her head. however, i think we both need to find happier people to lift our spirits, sometimes it seems as if we only keep bringing eachother down. thats what mike and ashleigh are for :) and while i dont show it all the time, i really do appreciate them very much. i try to give good advice though, i hope im doing an okay job.
today mike came to my house to bring me to school. it was funny. he always makes me feel so insignifigant when hes in one of his moods. hes just so domineering with his arms crossed standing tall, just waiting for someone to do something to provoke him. no matter how much he complains, i know he enjoys it. if only randy were here to walk through the doors, and the two of em start sparring. then jon comes in with his magic cards, then they take over the back of the library. last year was clearly awesome. so thankyou mike for making my morning special. :) speaking of the randyman, he comes home in 17 days.
and brownie-STOP BEING A BABY. jesus.