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well that was a far-fetched thought.
very far-fetched.
i dont want to be drunk anymore.
the only things that happen are madness, crying, or calling people that i talk to for long periods of time, and later on realize there was no point.
i need to realize that i cant find happiness in being drunk. being drunk and all of a sudden growing balls isnt going to get me anywhere, because the person i'm talking to grew balls cause they were drunk too.
the next day, they dont care. yet somehow.... i do. i always have. hopefully i wont again.
hopefully it wont happen again. these hopes that i build up for myself are only a figment of my imagination. and they've got to go away.
home next week might be a good idea.
very far-fetched.
i dont want to be drunk anymore.
the only things that happen are madness, crying, or calling people that i talk to for long periods of time, and later on realize there was no point.
i need to realize that i cant find happiness in being drunk. being drunk and all of a sudden growing balls isnt going to get me anywhere, because the person i'm talking to grew balls cause they were drunk too.
the next day, they dont care. yet somehow.... i do. i always have. hopefully i wont again.
hopefully it wont happen again. these hopes that i build up for myself are only a figment of my imagination. and they've got to go away.
home next week might be a good idea.