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I dont know why life has to tease me.
Either make it all suck, or make it all good. I'm tired of things being bad, and then for like 4 hours of my life i have a good time. i laugh, and tell stories, and actually get along with someone. and it's with someone who feels the same way i do about everything. but i know it was only 4 hours. there won't be anymore hours. there won't be anymore of it at all. i'm not going to even dwell on it, because there's no point. and i'm not telling anyone about it, because all that will happen is me getting excited, and then watching it drift away. what happened last night wont happen again. i'm not stupid.
all i'm asking for is to just give me more than 4 hours of happiness per 6 months. thats all.
i will admit though, it was nice going to bed thinking about something other than the fact that i felt alone. because for a split second, i didnt feel that way.
Either make it all suck, or make it all good. I'm tired of things being bad, and then for like 4 hours of my life i have a good time. i laugh, and tell stories, and actually get along with someone. and it's with someone who feels the same way i do about everything. but i know it was only 4 hours. there won't be anymore hours. there won't be anymore of it at all. i'm not going to even dwell on it, because there's no point. and i'm not telling anyone about it, because all that will happen is me getting excited, and then watching it drift away. what happened last night wont happen again. i'm not stupid.
all i'm asking for is to just give me more than 4 hours of happiness per 6 months. thats all.
i will admit though, it was nice going to bed thinking about something other than the fact that i felt alone. because for a split second, i didnt feel that way.