(no subject)
It's Friday again? Where does the time go? My life is flying by and I can't keep up! It's making me crazy. There are so many things I want to accomplish, so many things on my to-do list, and so many of these things are sneaking by undone. For example, SSWO book sale. Wicked bummer. Maria's huge birthday weekend... snuck up before I knew it. I don't even know what to do to manage my time any better, I do however have an extra free hour on Monday afternoons. CUH Kimberly.
Nothing bad has happened today, but I have all this anger pent up inside of me. I can feel it welling up and I fear an explosion. Four more hours, I keep telling myself, four more hours...
I had a meltdown on Wednesday night. Couldn't stop crying, full of emotions. Didn't fall asleep until early morning. Nightmares. A mess. All I kept saying was how badly I wanted to pack up and just move home... Maria overheard, didn't care enough at the time to talk to me about anything, but cared enough to leave me a note to wake up to. Marvelous. What a caring friend. She thinks I'm dramatic, so fine. I don't care at this point. At least I have feelings and I'm not afraid to talk about them or share them with people. I'm open with everything and if that makes me dramatic, or selfish, or bitchy - FINE! I don't really care, because there are so many people on this planet who keep everything to themselves and have all this pent up frustration and are completely submissive to everyone around them and I think that's worse! I truly do! Maria is that person, so afraid of confrontation. Well, maybe I thrive on it too much, but how can you judge one extreme when you're the other? Neither is good, a medium would be best, but who are you to judge me?! I wouldn't be able to live coming home each day knowing that so many people took advantage of me and that I just sat there and let them...
WOW just went off on a tangent. SO, anyway, today is my valentine's day. Roy keeps saying that he goes all out, so I'm getting a bit anxious excited nervous. All I know is that we're not spending the night at the dorm... and that he might get us some liquor... lol sounds worse than I'm sure it is. I've really been doubting us lately, just stressed more than happy with our relationship; but I'm not giving up easy, so call me stupid or foolish or whatever you want... it might all be true, but we'll have to see with time.
Saturday night is Stacy's birthday surprise and KAJFLAJKS am I excited!! She's going to be so happy, I just know it, she's gunna cry tears of joy lol it's going to ROCK!!
Last night I hung out with Rachael :) I called her around 5 and told her that I really wanted to get out of the dorm and she pulled through for me. It was all a little chaotic and rushed, but she picked me and Kim up and we went to see Tick Tick Boom OMG amazing! It was a small little room with folding chairs set up, so sketchy and freezing cold, but the band bROCKed! LMAO and the acting was exceptional. PLUS, the traveling broadway cast of Rent was there and I got to sit next to them! :)!! How cool... totally not a theater geek, but I wish I was. :P
So on Sunday I might go with Roy to see Rent. That would be cool awesome fab.
So, there's a lot of good good good and baddddddd in my life right now. Kimberly actually just called me and SHE cancelled our appointmet! Wow I think that's a sign.
Signing off.... KRIZZLE :P
Nothing bad has happened today, but I have all this anger pent up inside of me. I can feel it welling up and I fear an explosion. Four more hours, I keep telling myself, four more hours...
I had a meltdown on Wednesday night. Couldn't stop crying, full of emotions. Didn't fall asleep until early morning. Nightmares. A mess. All I kept saying was how badly I wanted to pack up and just move home... Maria overheard, didn't care enough at the time to talk to me about anything, but cared enough to leave me a note to wake up to. Marvelous. What a caring friend. She thinks I'm dramatic, so fine. I don't care at this point. At least I have feelings and I'm not afraid to talk about them or share them with people. I'm open with everything and if that makes me dramatic, or selfish, or bitchy - FINE! I don't really care, because there are so many people on this planet who keep everything to themselves and have all this pent up frustration and are completely submissive to everyone around them and I think that's worse! I truly do! Maria is that person, so afraid of confrontation. Well, maybe I thrive on it too much, but how can you judge one extreme when you're the other? Neither is good, a medium would be best, but who are you to judge me?! I wouldn't be able to live coming home each day knowing that so many people took advantage of me and that I just sat there and let them...
WOW just went off on a tangent. SO, anyway, today is my valentine's day. Roy keeps saying that he goes all out, so I'm getting a bit anxious excited nervous. All I know is that we're not spending the night at the dorm... and that he might get us some liquor... lol sounds worse than I'm sure it is. I've really been doubting us lately, just stressed more than happy with our relationship; but I'm not giving up easy, so call me stupid or foolish or whatever you want... it might all be true, but we'll have to see with time.
Saturday night is Stacy's birthday surprise and KAJFLAJKS am I excited!! She's going to be so happy, I just know it, she's gunna cry tears of joy lol it's going to ROCK!!
Last night I hung out with Rachael :) I called her around 5 and told her that I really wanted to get out of the dorm and she pulled through for me. It was all a little chaotic and rushed, but she picked me and Kim up and we went to see Tick Tick Boom OMG amazing! It was a small little room with folding chairs set up, so sketchy and freezing cold, but the band bROCKed! LMAO and the acting was exceptional. PLUS, the traveling broadway cast of Rent was there and I got to sit next to them! :)!! How cool... totally not a theater geek, but I wish I was. :P
So on Sunday I might go with Roy to see Rent. That would be cool awesome fab.
So, there's a lot of good good good and baddddddd in my life right now. Kimberly actually just called me and SHE cancelled our appointmet! Wow I think that's a sign.
Signing off.... KRIZZLE :P