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well today was ok but it wasnt great well i woke up and called christian he was goin to come over but then all of a sudden my mommy said wait no he cant cuz i gots to go so w/e then he got upset so now were tryin to plan 4 another day so then i got pissed with my mom cuz she was just i dont know pissin me off so i went upstairs and threw my table cross the room and broke shit then i went to pick up the broken glass and got a piece of glass right through my finger and its cut pretty bad then my mommy made me go to my aunts which is where i am right now but i dont mind i like being here i can get away from everythin and somewhat relax but um idk things are a lil fucked up like me and alicia were fightin cuz of what i said in my last journal entry but were good now ive realized my parents are right bout me im everything they said i was and that just makes me hate myself more im a horrible person ive found a CD i totaly relate to in like every song it was weird cuz one song the one im listenin is called behind hazle eyes and i gots hazle eyes lol but most of the songs are bout breakups and bein hurt and not trustin ppl and i so relate but anywho my aunt knows i cut myself so now my uncle does and its a mess i feel so out of place with everyone i dont feel like i belong nemore at all ive messed so much up and ive changed so much i dont even know myself nemore i hate it well i gots to go 4 now ill write back later nite