sunday evening...
I miss my Mark...absense makes the heart grow fonder*~
I feel more independent than I ever have before. Before I would worry how I would feel leaving high school and the security of it all. But here I am with the worst case of senioritis...sick to death of high school! The popularity contests and fake smiles...makes me want to gag sometimes. Don't get me wrong, there are some people that I actually like seeing and smiling at, but the fact is people I thought were my good friends just arent anymore. For that matter, people I thought I hated and hated me I now am inlove with. Funny how that stuff works. He amazes me. This next month will be fun...stressful at times...but fun :) I like to be busy. It makes me feel more alive. However, feeling like things are spiraling out of control is not something I enjoy. Between AP tests, work, my bf, friends, band, fine arts dessert night, and oh did i mention detention--things can get crazy. No one said life would be easy though, and I dont think I'd want it to be...
Right now prom, my incoming paycheck, good friends, and mark's kisses are the only things getting me through this last bit of school. After Ap tests things will be a sinch..hopefully.
I feel more independent than I ever have before. Before I would worry how I would feel leaving high school and the security of it all. But here I am with the worst case of senioritis...sick to death of high school! The popularity contests and fake smiles...makes me want to gag sometimes. Don't get me wrong, there are some people that I actually like seeing and smiling at, but the fact is people I thought were my good friends just arent anymore. For that matter, people I thought I hated and hated me I now am inlove with. Funny how that stuff works. He amazes me. This next month will be fun...stressful at times...but fun :) I like to be busy. It makes me feel more alive. However, feeling like things are spiraling out of control is not something I enjoy. Between AP tests, work, my bf, friends, band, fine arts dessert night, and oh did i mention detention--things can get crazy. No one said life would be easy though, and I dont think I'd want it to be...
Right now prom, my incoming paycheck, good friends, and mark's kisses are the only things getting me through this last bit of school. After Ap tests things will be a sinch..hopefully.