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Apr 08, 2006 00:40

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seraphkitten April 11 2006, 15:39:48 UTC
Hey wow.
I actually read all that.
I wasnt going to because the length scared me, but upon a quick scan it seemed important enough that I read it thoroughly and put my 2 cents in.
I dont understand why you cant afford a home now, when it was you and me you werent having too hard of time affording things. I mean it was a pain, but you could stil afford them nonetheless. Whatever it is thats sucking up your fundage now might be not worth its eating-through-kts-wallet abilities. Im guessing its your recent incidences with your car, but if its not, youve got at least $600 a month now (unless they dropped your hours?) that you aren't spending too much of, if you really want a home you should save that up for a month and then just grit your teeth and go out and find one. It might not be the snazziest place, but a place is a place. Check out those places that prego used to live in.. those are fairly cheap.
I would consider moving back in with Aaron, except that Im afraid that the exact same thing would happen. Again. You guys would get unhappy, whining and fighting will ensue, you guys will hate eachother more, and then someone ends up on the street, and considering aarons integrity, he would probably hold his ground longer than you.
I dunno. Its up to you.
=)
But, you were happy when it was me and you, and when you were living at my home, so you cant say that you werent happy with ANY of your recent homes =P
hehe. Are we still doing 30STM?

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kt_rogue_1031 April 11 2006, 20:07:20 UTC
i can't afford to live in an apartment (or really anywhere) right now cuz yes, they did drop my hours a bit, but THAT isn't my fault. even though i make AT LEAST $600 a month, i still can't afford to find a place. it was REALLY hard for me to live in that apartment with just you, let alone now, find one by myself. oh well. and about considering moving back in with aaron, yeah, i AM considering it. but, i probably won't, just for said reasons. we WILL end up fighting and bitching all the time, and end up hating each other more than we already do. it sucks, and there's really nothing i can do about it. i don't want to take the chance to let aaron get the satisfaction of "holding his ground" longer than i do, and me ending up on the street anymore than i already am. i'm already stressed out about not having a real place to live enough as it is right now, i don't need aaron to ruin that again.
oh, and now apparently he got offered some sort of management position at wal mart on overnights... wtf? he's been there for less than a week, already started makind more money than me as it is, and gets fucking management? it's rediculous. i don't want to be there anymore anyway, and now, the fact that aaron is doing better than me gets to my brain, (even though you are going to tell me that it shouldn't) and i don't want to work for that evil place at all. i'm going to try to find at least a second job, if not some other one that i can get and NOT have to be at wal mart. fun times.
and i DID enjoy living with you. both at your mom's house, and at the apartments. i'm not saying that it was all bad. i'm sure that if aaron hadn't been there at the apartment the WHOLE time, it would have been a LITTLE more enjoyable, but it wasn't that bad. so i'm not saying that living with you isn't fun, er WASN'T fun.

and about 30STM...
i don't know if i'm going to have the money.
that weekend:
no moneys.
i HAVE the days off.
but
my grandparents are doing some anniversary thingy, and my mom wants me to go to that...
and
it's easter...
so i don't know
i'll have to see
i know that it's in like a few days or something.
hrm...
yeah...
call me

<3 kT

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seraphkitten April 13 2006, 22:34:55 UTC
I did call your. and/or will.
Depending on when you wrote this.

Im sorry to hear that your situation is so bad.
One thing that Ive learned is that Aaron is one of those people that can get by on life effortlessley for reasons unknown to me. He seems to be able to be good at anything he wants to be, which probably has something to do with some of his personality disorders.
The faster you come to terms with it, the better.
Its still biting me in the ass too.
It makes me angry sometimes. But there are people like that in the world.
Unfortunatley.

Anyways, I hope you find a better job, and whatnot. Or a second job. Something like that. And I hope you find a home soon, cause that would be cool for you too.
And Im going to be very sad if you cant go to 30STM.
But I definatley need to know soon cause the only way Im going is if you are.. I dont really want to go all the way down to Seattle to watch a concert by my lonesome.

Anywhoo.. yea. Ill call you soon.

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kt_rogue_1031 April 14 2006, 06:09:17 UTC
when is the blasted show...?
i don't have ANY moneys to drive up there, let alone go to a show at all.
but call me. we'll do something sometime i'm sure. i'll mosey my way up there to hang out with you eventually.

<3 KT

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