"kt, do you mind if i smoke in here...? it's cold outside." fuck off lazy bastards. you can freeze your nuts off for all i care." there are a lot of people that i hang out with that i should look at too. (and if this offends ANY of you, you can fuck off.)
watch out, youre starting to sound like me.
Since I love you, im going to make this a lot more delicate than I usually would. Be sure youre doing this for you. I can see this entry being partly an image youre constructing to build a connection between yourself and a certain someone. Ive done it before, so I know what they look like. I might be wrong, but Ive never seen you interested in the bible before. (and im mainly talking about that specific paragraph, the rest sounds normal) If im wrong, ignore this. But if Im right.. be careful. Religon is a powerful thing. You should not change your beliefs to get closer to someone. Or anything for that matter, but thats something deep that you need to find and be sure of yourself. Ive changed a lot of things to get closer to a guy. A lot of things actually do change, and im not just making them up to get close to them. When you start liking someone, you start liking the things they like through your like for them. Its complicated. But things like that you should be sure of yourself, devoid of outside opinion.
If youre still exploring.. be careful of their influence. cause when they leave, if they leave... its really emotionally corrupting if a lot of your belief systems were based on them.
I may be barking up the wrong tree.. But just be careful luv. As long as you know who you are without them, youre fine. Crushes are more powerful than we give them credit for.
i know what you are talking about with the whole changing thing... actually a while ago... i don't remember HOW LONG exactly, but i was thinking about just going to church to check it out... i don't remember why or anything like that, but this sort of gives me some sort of "motivation" to do it. part of it IS for that certain person, cuz i would like to be closer to him, but that's only a REALLY small bit of it. i haven't gone to anything remotely religious in over 2 years... and i'd like to get into it just a bit. i don't want to COMPLETELY change myself in that way... i'm still going to be the same person, i'm just going to start reading the bible and trying to understand it. i've never actually done that. any time that i ever tried to read it, i either got sidetracked with something more pointless, or i only did it cuz i was GOING to some sort of church function, where one of the requirements was to either read part of it, or listen to someone go off about it for a predetermined amount of time. youth group in union was good for me when i went. i had fun out there with my friends, and we only studied the bible for a small amount of time. the people out there made it so that i could stand to go. i don't know. i'll just have to figure out how to do it on my own. shit, i don't even own a bible for fuck's sake... haha. but that's my reasoning for it. i think that in some way, understanding it more will help me with my happiness... along with getting out of here, but THAT is beside the point. and i do realize that crushes are more powerful than people give them ANY credit for. i've had to deal with SO many of them in the past year or so. and i've been hurt by the power of crushes and what my brain likes to think when i have them.
and as for the no smoking thing... i can't do it anymore... i'm sick all the time, and i'm just annoyed with a kabillion people that come in my room everyday just so they don't have to go outside in the coldness. if they want to kill their lungs, they might as well get frostbite as well. it'll just help them die faster i think. they're wanting to kill themselves THAT bad, so let them do it quicker, right? LMAO i'm horrible i think but yeah, that's it. i'll talk to you more about it sometime.
there are a lot of people that i hang out with that i should look at too. (and if this offends ANY of you, you can fuck off.)
watch out, youre starting to sound like me.
Since I love you, im going to make this a lot more delicate than I usually would.
Be sure youre doing this for you.
I can see this entry being partly an image youre constructing to build a connection between yourself and a certain someone. Ive done it before, so I know what they look like. I might be wrong, but Ive never seen you interested in the bible before. (and im mainly talking about that specific paragraph, the rest sounds normal)
If im wrong, ignore this.
But if Im right.. be careful. Religon is a powerful thing. You should not change your beliefs to get closer to someone. Or anything for that matter, but thats something deep that you need to find and be sure of yourself.
Ive changed a lot of things to get closer to a guy. A lot of things actually do change, and im not just making them up to get close to them. When you start liking someone, you start liking the things they like through your like for them. Its complicated.
But things like that you should be sure of yourself, devoid of outside opinion.
If youre still exploring.. be careful of their influence.
cause when they leave, if they leave... its really emotionally corrupting if a lot of your belief systems were based on them.
I may be barking up the wrong tree..
But just be careful luv.
As long as you know who you are without them, youre fine.
Crushes are more powerful than we give them credit for.
As for the smoking thing?
*claps*
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actually a while ago... i don't remember HOW LONG exactly, but i was thinking about just going to church to check it out... i don't remember why or anything like that, but this sort of gives me some sort of "motivation" to do it.
part of it IS for that certain person, cuz i would like to be closer to him, but that's only a REALLY small bit of it. i haven't gone to anything remotely religious in over 2 years... and i'd like to get into it just a bit. i don't want to COMPLETELY change myself in that way... i'm still going to be the same person, i'm just going to start reading the bible and trying to understand it. i've never actually done that. any time that i ever tried to read it, i either got sidetracked with something more pointless, or i only did it cuz i was GOING to some sort of church function, where one of the requirements was to either read part of it, or listen to someone go off about it for a predetermined amount of time. youth group in union was good for me when i went. i had fun out there with my friends, and we only studied the bible for a small amount of time. the people out there made it so that i could stand to go. i don't know. i'll just have to figure out how to do it on my own. shit, i don't even own a bible for fuck's sake... haha.
but that's my reasoning for it. i think that in some way, understanding it more will help me with my happiness... along with getting out of here, but THAT is beside the point.
and i do realize that crushes are more powerful than people give them ANY credit for. i've had to deal with SO many of them in the past year or so. and i've been hurt by the power of crushes and what my brain likes to think when i have them.
and as for the no smoking thing...
i can't do it anymore... i'm sick all the time, and i'm just annoyed with a kabillion people that come in my room everyday just so they don't have to go outside in the coldness. if they want to kill their lungs, they might as well get frostbite as well. it'll just help them die faster i think. they're wanting to kill themselves THAT bad, so let them do it quicker, right?
LMAO
i'm horrible i think
but yeah, that's it.
i'll talk to you more about it sometime.
<3 KT
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i think i wanted to add something but i dont remember what.
Maybe ill remember when we talk or something.
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