ranting.
"i am more exhausted right now then i have ever been in my life" that is the theme of this week. seriously. even during finals when i hardly sleep...i am still more exhausted now. all this week is vbs at the church. which i love to do. this year our theme is the pirates who dont do anything. we're using a different company this year and while its really fun for the kids its really hard to pull off because the stuff for the leaders is sooo complicated! im teaching preschool bible story and in one night they wanted the kids to wade through water, walk through sand, then paint their hands and put them on a piece of paper! what the heck! preschoolers can NOT do all of that in 20 minutes! its crazy. so i have to think of different things to modify the lesson. its nuts.
yesterday i was with kids a total of 14 hours and 30 minutes. none stop. no break. no rest. nothing. thats like how long parents spend with their children...I AM NOT READY TO BE A MOM! that is what i learned from yesterday. im not ready to be sleep deprived and cranky and just wanted some peace for 2 minutes. not to mention not being able to listen to decent music all day long because i had to listen to the songs my kids wanted to listen too. man. im not ready. not that i was planning on having a kid sometime soon but yesterday just made me realize how im really not ready.
today i have "off". yea right. even on my days "off" im still working. today im not watching any kids (PRAISE THE LORD FOR THAT!) but i am cleaning my room...slowly. and i do have to work at the mall tonight. and thats how it always is. if i have off from kids i have to go to the mall to work. if i have off from the mall then im working with the kids. it never ends! next week me and my parents are going to the beach for 3 whole days and im sooooooooooooooooooooooo excited! i wont have to do any type of work. i can sleep till whenever i want. i can lay on the beach and listen to whatever music i want. i can watch whatever tv show i want and not worry if its ok for little kids to be watching. i dont have to yell at kids to stop running or to keep their hands to themselves. i wont have keep track of anybody. wont worry about where the kids are. wont have to ask anybody if they would like to be fitted for pants or if they would like a lane bryant credit card. no dressing rooms. no putbacks. nothing like that. 3 whole days on the beach. can you tell that im just little excited about it and that i really need a vacation?
ok. back to cleaning my room. just 6 days. 6 days until the beach. 6 days...