Missing LJ
I miss LJ a lot. I don't mean writing here. That's part of it, but what I really miss is the old LJ. The community feel to this place is long gone. I'm not interested in joining half assed new communities that aren't created for good content, but are instead created by those that just want to be a moderator and don't have a fucking clue on how to run a community. Also, many of the older communites that were once thriving and active are now collecting dust.
It's sad really. I knew that with technology and expansion of social networking, LJ active membership would eventually drop off, but it's still sad to see that happen. I never had a lot of people listed as friends on LJ as I prefer keeping myself fairly private, but out of those I still have listed, maybe only a few still post. Those of you that have been on my list for almost as long as I've been here, I feel like I've really come to know you in a way.
I started this journal around Autumn 2001. I was suffering moderately from social anxiety back then and I was also still smarting from a broken relationship just a few months earlier. I was in a new relationship at that point, but had no idea where it was going. It was very casual, yet exclusive. My original idea was to write down my thoughts about both relationships and vent about things I normally tend to bottle up inside. I don't think I really wrote as much as I planned. Occasionally, but not too often.
How far have I come since then? Since this is a public entry, I won't go into details. I can say that there are things that I prefer about myself in today's world than back in 2001. I do have a few regrets as well. Not exactly how things turned out, but more about how I could have done things a little differently. I'm not surprised about that as I've always been the type of person that is constantly looking back and wondering how I should have done things instead.
I'm not really sure what brought on this entry in the middle of the night. I suppose it's just me remembering this place for what it used to be and thinking about my life back then.
It's sad really. I knew that with technology and expansion of social networking, LJ active membership would eventually drop off, but it's still sad to see that happen. I never had a lot of people listed as friends on LJ as I prefer keeping myself fairly private, but out of those I still have listed, maybe only a few still post. Those of you that have been on my list for almost as long as I've been here, I feel like I've really come to know you in a way.
I started this journal around Autumn 2001. I was suffering moderately from social anxiety back then and I was also still smarting from a broken relationship just a few months earlier. I was in a new relationship at that point, but had no idea where it was going. It was very casual, yet exclusive. My original idea was to write down my thoughts about both relationships and vent about things I normally tend to bottle up inside. I don't think I really wrote as much as I planned. Occasionally, but not too often.
How far have I come since then? Since this is a public entry, I won't go into details. I can say that there are things that I prefer about myself in today's world than back in 2001. I do have a few regrets as well. Not exactly how things turned out, but more about how I could have done things a little differently. I'm not surprised about that as I've always been the type of person that is constantly looking back and wondering how I should have done things instead.
I'm not really sure what brought on this entry in the middle of the night. I suppose it's just me remembering this place for what it used to be and thinking about my life back then.