from now on, caring what you think is NOT an option.
concerning drama:
urbrainturnsmeon: i just keep my mouth shut and not let anything bother me.
urbrainturnsmeon: its not worth what it could possibly turn into.
urbrainturnsmeon: who gives a fuck? whoever/whatever made me upset, obviously doesnt give a fuck about me so why should i even give a shit?
urbrainturnsmeon: after high school none of that shit will even matter.
urbrainturnsmeon: and it comes to an end so quick. why waste it by having drama fill your life when you could jsut be havin fun.
1.) i'm not anorexic or bulumic.
a.) i probably love food way more than you do. sometimes [when i take my medication that i am prescribed to for ADHD] it just doesn't appeal to me. but that does not mean that my food intake is sparse. just sometimes it's a little less than what your's may be, and sometimes it's at a different time than your's may be. that's all.
b.) i'm sorry to inform you that i never have, and don't intend on EVER sticking my fingers or any foreign object down my throat. i don't self-induce vomit of any sort. nor do i take any type of laxative. i appreciate the creativity you've used while thinking about me, but it just isn't true. that was a nice little story, though! you should definitely write it down and publish it. just don't use my name, unless you want it to go under the "fiction" category.
c.) i'm also sorry that i got up off of my fat lazy ass and took the incentive to lose weight instead of just whining about it constantly. there's no need for your bitterness towards me, because i was never mean to you in the process of it. so quit talking shit, because it just makes you look like a jealous bitch, even if that isn't the case.
d.) despite contrary belief, i do exercise. maybe not as vigorously as you do, and maybe not in the same form that you do. but i can guarantee that if you participated in one of my dance classes, you would not be saying that it's not classified as exercise. because i'm almost positive your heartbeat would be increased, and you'd be tired and sweating. and besides that, i do crunches every weeknight before i go to sleep. i'm sorry that i'm not an athletic person and am not good at recreational sports, such as basketball, soccer, softball, etc. i'm sorry that i have a physical condition that prevents me from being able to go running as an enjoyment hobby, because the only enjoyment i'd take part in is when i'd be passed out on the road going unconscious. and it's pretty lame that you would insult me for something of the sort.
2.) i am not a slut.
a.) i've never had sex in my life.
b.) i've touched a single male reproductive organ. and we dated for two years.
c.) you've probably touched lips with more people than i have.
3.) what i do in my spare time that does not involve you is not your business, nor is it your business to tell others.
a.) why do you care so much, anyways? is your life really that boring that you have to dictate the details of mine to others? some of which aren't even correct?
b.) if you were to do something and i knew, and i was well-aware that you were ashamed of it, you can bet your bottom fucking dollar that i wouldn't be spreading shit about you. because i know the deal. i know how much it sucks. i put myself in others' positions. i think about the affect my words have on others before i open my mouth.
c.) keep in mind : sometimes not everyone wants to hear YOUR opinion. opinion is a very controversial subject, and the majority of the time it should be kept to yourself unless asked for.
d.) i may deserve to be punished, and what i did definitely was NOT right, but it's not your place to dole out my punishment, it's not your place to make me feel like shit, and it's not your place to even have a say on the subect unless asked for. jonathan is the only one, in my eyes, entitled to that position. and just because if he doesn't do anything about it, it still doesn't give you the right to be an asshole to me about it.
[and by the way, this isn't directed at one person. it may have blossomed in my mind from one person, but i made amends with them and i'm just writing down what i've gotten out of all of this and just putting it out there for anyone who feels like reading it. and it may not even be who you think it is. because in most instances, it's far more than one person.]
4.) i did not do anything to deserve being talked shit about by anyone except for jonathan.
a.) what happened was between three people. not the whole world.
b.) i probably have not said a mean word about you, so you probably shouldn't say a mean word about me.
c.) if jealousy or anything of the sort, even though no one should be jealous because every single one of my friends is drop-dead-gorgeous, is the issue, then take it as your own incentive to do whatever you feel you need to do. don't say mean things about me, because i most likely don't say mean things about you, and that's not very fair.
d.) talking shit doesn't get you anywhere in life. it just slows you down and makes you look bad. think about the most well-liked people you know. do they engage in detailed conversations about how much a person sucks often? i bet they don't. unless the only reason people like them is because they're scared of them, fearing being talked crap about. and that isn't really people liking them at all, now is it?
5.) you know that i won't say anything to you, and that's why you do it. subconsciously or not, that's why.
a.) i don't like starting drama, regardless of what you think. do you ever see me picking fights with people? nah. i like everything to be straight with everyone. i'm happy when my friends are happy. especially when they're happy with me.
b.) i don't stand up for myself, even though i should. but i don't know how without being mean. and i know that if i did, you'd just talk more shit. which sucks to know. because basically i'm helpless. either way, i lose. i stand up for myself, i get shit-talked about for starting drama. i dont stand up for myself, you keep talking shit about whatever you feel like talking shit about about me. it's very childish, if you ask me. but you didn't ask. so i shouldn't have said that. but you can't take back the past and not a single living soul is perfect, including me and including you. so remember that. you make mistakes, too.
so just think about those things. and think about what it would feel like to know that the people you thought were your best friends hold conversations behind your back all the time, discussing how much you suck. because i know how that feels. and i know how much it sucks. a hundred times over. because i have been there a hundred times over. and boy does it feel great to know i have such terrific people as the basis of my teenage life. that's all of my bitching. from now on, i'm going to try to be as pleasant as possible to everyone, regardless of how mean you are to me/behind my back. that's the only thing i can do. and no one should take this as an insult or anything of the sort, because that's not what it's meant as. it's just a view of my thoughts on some topics that i felt the need to clear up. i'm not out to get anyone at all. i'm not trying to offend anyone. you can believe whatever you want to believe, but this is my own personal way of letting you know that i'm aware you talk crap about me. and i'm not mad. and i'm not saying anything to anyone. because it's not a big deal and it's nothing to get worked up over and start drama and hate each other over. it really isn't. i'd prefer if you didn't say such hateful things about me, but if you really feel the need to and if it helps you in some way, then i guess go for it. i'd rather you be helped and feeling better than my feelings spared.
urbrainturnsmeon: i just keep my mouth shut and not let anything bother me.
urbrainturnsmeon: its not worth what it could possibly turn into.
urbrainturnsmeon: who gives a fuck? whoever/whatever made me upset, obviously doesnt give a fuck about me so why should i even give a shit?
urbrainturnsmeon: after high school none of that shit will even matter.
urbrainturnsmeon: and it comes to an end so quick. why waste it by having drama fill your life when you could jsut be havin fun.
1.) i'm not anorexic or bulumic.
a.) i probably love food way more than you do. sometimes [when i take my medication that i am prescribed to for ADHD] it just doesn't appeal to me. but that does not mean that my food intake is sparse. just sometimes it's a little less than what your's may be, and sometimes it's at a different time than your's may be. that's all.
b.) i'm sorry to inform you that i never have, and don't intend on EVER sticking my fingers or any foreign object down my throat. i don't self-induce vomit of any sort. nor do i take any type of laxative. i appreciate the creativity you've used while thinking about me, but it just isn't true. that was a nice little story, though! you should definitely write it down and publish it. just don't use my name, unless you want it to go under the "fiction" category.
c.) i'm also sorry that i got up off of my fat lazy ass and took the incentive to lose weight instead of just whining about it constantly. there's no need for your bitterness towards me, because i was never mean to you in the process of it. so quit talking shit, because it just makes you look like a jealous bitch, even if that isn't the case.
d.) despite contrary belief, i do exercise. maybe not as vigorously as you do, and maybe not in the same form that you do. but i can guarantee that if you participated in one of my dance classes, you would not be saying that it's not classified as exercise. because i'm almost positive your heartbeat would be increased, and you'd be tired and sweating. and besides that, i do crunches every weeknight before i go to sleep. i'm sorry that i'm not an athletic person and am not good at recreational sports, such as basketball, soccer, softball, etc. i'm sorry that i have a physical condition that prevents me from being able to go running as an enjoyment hobby, because the only enjoyment i'd take part in is when i'd be passed out on the road going unconscious. and it's pretty lame that you would insult me for something of the sort.
2.) i am not a slut.
a.) i've never had sex in my life.
b.) i've touched a single male reproductive organ. and we dated for two years.
c.) you've probably touched lips with more people than i have.
3.) what i do in my spare time that does not involve you is not your business, nor is it your business to tell others.
a.) why do you care so much, anyways? is your life really that boring that you have to dictate the details of mine to others? some of which aren't even correct?
b.) if you were to do something and i knew, and i was well-aware that you were ashamed of it, you can bet your bottom fucking dollar that i wouldn't be spreading shit about you. because i know the deal. i know how much it sucks. i put myself in others' positions. i think about the affect my words have on others before i open my mouth.
c.) keep in mind : sometimes not everyone wants to hear YOUR opinion. opinion is a very controversial subject, and the majority of the time it should be kept to yourself unless asked for.
d.) i may deserve to be punished, and what i did definitely was NOT right, but it's not your place to dole out my punishment, it's not your place to make me feel like shit, and it's not your place to even have a say on the subect unless asked for. jonathan is the only one, in my eyes, entitled to that position. and just because if he doesn't do anything about it, it still doesn't give you the right to be an asshole to me about it.
[and by the way, this isn't directed at one person. it may have blossomed in my mind from one person, but i made amends with them and i'm just writing down what i've gotten out of all of this and just putting it out there for anyone who feels like reading it. and it may not even be who you think it is. because in most instances, it's far more than one person.]
4.) i did not do anything to deserve being talked shit about by anyone except for jonathan.
a.) what happened was between three people. not the whole world.
b.) i probably have not said a mean word about you, so you probably shouldn't say a mean word about me.
c.) if jealousy or anything of the sort, even though no one should be jealous because every single one of my friends is drop-dead-gorgeous, is the issue, then take it as your own incentive to do whatever you feel you need to do. don't say mean things about me, because i most likely don't say mean things about you, and that's not very fair.
d.) talking shit doesn't get you anywhere in life. it just slows you down and makes you look bad. think about the most well-liked people you know. do they engage in detailed conversations about how much a person sucks often? i bet they don't. unless the only reason people like them is because they're scared of them, fearing being talked crap about. and that isn't really people liking them at all, now is it?
5.) you know that i won't say anything to you, and that's why you do it. subconsciously or not, that's why.
a.) i don't like starting drama, regardless of what you think. do you ever see me picking fights with people? nah. i like everything to be straight with everyone. i'm happy when my friends are happy. especially when they're happy with me.
b.) i don't stand up for myself, even though i should. but i don't know how without being mean. and i know that if i did, you'd just talk more shit. which sucks to know. because basically i'm helpless. either way, i lose. i stand up for myself, i get shit-talked about for starting drama. i dont stand up for myself, you keep talking shit about whatever you feel like talking shit about about me. it's very childish, if you ask me. but you didn't ask. so i shouldn't have said that. but you can't take back the past and not a single living soul is perfect, including me and including you. so remember that. you make mistakes, too.
so just think about those things. and think about what it would feel like to know that the people you thought were your best friends hold conversations behind your back all the time, discussing how much you suck. because i know how that feels. and i know how much it sucks. a hundred times over. because i have been there a hundred times over. and boy does it feel great to know i have such terrific people as the basis of my teenage life. that's all of my bitching. from now on, i'm going to try to be as pleasant as possible to everyone, regardless of how mean you are to me/behind my back. that's the only thing i can do. and no one should take this as an insult or anything of the sort, because that's not what it's meant as. it's just a view of my thoughts on some topics that i felt the need to clear up. i'm not out to get anyone at all. i'm not trying to offend anyone. you can believe whatever you want to believe, but this is my own personal way of letting you know that i'm aware you talk crap about me. and i'm not mad. and i'm not saying anything to anyone. because it's not a big deal and it's nothing to get worked up over and start drama and hate each other over. it really isn't. i'd prefer if you didn't say such hateful things about me, but if you really feel the need to and if it helps you in some way, then i guess go for it. i'd rather you be helped and feeling better than my feelings spared.