Sometimes I wonder...
I'm feeling kinda pants at the moment.
So two weeks ago I crashed my car and since then I have been trying to sort out the insurance so I can get my claim through and get the two checks I'm supposed to get as quickly as possible. But of course there has been problems because the insurance companies want to pay out as little as possible each but between them both I'm supposed to get the full value of the car when I bought it.
Other than that... well the poker dealer job that I started last week has kinda failed. Because of some customers being well, jerks. In my first proper shift there was a complaint about my personal hygiene. Now I'm not a dirty person, I shower every day and wear deouderant, but because of my nerves I was sweating more than usual. Now this complaint didn't help my nerves but I started to essentially wash in my breaks and apply fresh deouderant. But there were more complaints. Now I'm sorry, but to me there is nothing else I can do to stop myself sweating - I was cleaning myself up in every break which is every one and a half hours. And I was just getting more stressed. In the end I handed in my resignation because to me, I couldn't do anything else. I feel really embarassed about it in the end, I mean, I had to leave my job because essentially I smelt? I mean crap man. But alas, I now have no job and need to find a new one.
I've also got my interview for Interac Japan on Monday, so I'm trying my best to focus on that rather than the lack of job. I'm trying to come up with a little drill based on colours and also a little greeting.
It's just that this last two weeks have been... challenging for me... and I just want to curl up for a few days and hide from the world. I know as long as I give the impression that I'm looking for a job to my mother I can maybe scrounge a day or two of peace from her.
I dunno...
I know I need a job, I can't just sit around for 5/6 months. But my will power for looking for a job is degrading quickly. The fact that my internet is being completely fail doesn't help as I do most of my job hunting online.
So two weeks ago I crashed my car and since then I have been trying to sort out the insurance so I can get my claim through and get the two checks I'm supposed to get as quickly as possible. But of course there has been problems because the insurance companies want to pay out as little as possible each but between them both I'm supposed to get the full value of the car when I bought it.
Other than that... well the poker dealer job that I started last week has kinda failed. Because of some customers being well, jerks. In my first proper shift there was a complaint about my personal hygiene. Now I'm not a dirty person, I shower every day and wear deouderant, but because of my nerves I was sweating more than usual. Now this complaint didn't help my nerves but I started to essentially wash in my breaks and apply fresh deouderant. But there were more complaints. Now I'm sorry, but to me there is nothing else I can do to stop myself sweating - I was cleaning myself up in every break which is every one and a half hours. And I was just getting more stressed. In the end I handed in my resignation because to me, I couldn't do anything else. I feel really embarassed about it in the end, I mean, I had to leave my job because essentially I smelt? I mean crap man. But alas, I now have no job and need to find a new one.
I've also got my interview for Interac Japan on Monday, so I'm trying my best to focus on that rather than the lack of job. I'm trying to come up with a little drill based on colours and also a little greeting.
It's just that this last two weeks have been... challenging for me... and I just want to curl up for a few days and hide from the world. I know as long as I give the impression that I'm looking for a job to my mother I can maybe scrounge a day or two of peace from her.
I dunno...
I know I need a job, I can't just sit around for 5/6 months. But my will power for looking for a job is degrading quickly. The fact that my internet is being completely fail doesn't help as I do most of my job hunting online.