The Tightrope part 9
Jun stared at the high wire stretching out his body a few times before walking over the line. His family had walked the line for years and there was only one thing…Or rather person…That he enjoyed doing more. Nino often complained that he preferred being on the tightrope more than he enjoyed being with him and that it was all he could think about. Neither was true. When he was up here Nino was all he thought about it stopped him from focusing on the fact that he could actually die during his more dangerous tricks. The last few months had been awkward, even if they had silently agreed to not talk about Nino, and he was determined to try and clear the air between him and Satoshi. He walked over to Satoshi’s podium and then sat down looking at him. Satoshi lifted an eyebrow and jerked his shoulders in his direction and Jun let out a sigh looking out over the caravans and rides and people finding it easy to spot Nino, even from high up here, as Niji was beside him walking through the crowds and he sighed;
“…I think that it’s time that we had a talk…”
“What about?”
“Don’t play dumb, it doesn’t suit you, I mean about Kazu…”
“I don’t have time to talk about your boyfriend…”
“…I know that you confessed to him…” Jun sighed and as he expected Satoshi stiffed his hand holding onto his legs tightly “And that he turned you down…I also know that you purposely let me fall that day…”
“…” Satoshi stiffened and then a noise ripped out of his throat that sounded almost the way Niji had done when Nino had first brought him home. The tiger had been so sickly and injured and Nino normally had very little patience that Jun was positive there would be nothing that could be done with it but his lover had carefully healed him and made him into a lovely creature that liked nothing more than to be involved in whatever it was that Nino was doing. Nino had that effect on most people though himself included. He sometimes suspected that Nino genuinely had no idea of the effect that he had on people which was why he was always having to remind people of who he belonged to.
“I’m sorry…” Jun breathed softly finally getting the words that he had been wanting to say for the past couple of days out “…About Nino and how he acted…And how he’s acting now…”
“I try and kill you and you apologise…?” Satoshi laughed jerkily sounding like he was about to cry and Jun gave an awkward sigh his eyes going down to the crowd again where Nino was being circled by a group. For a moment it looked as though he was being attacked but Niji let out a roar and there was a puff of smoke and it became obvious that he was just doing something like a show.
“You didn’t try to kill me…If you did want me dead you could have had at least a dozen chances since then…” He gave a smile and nudged his arm a little knowing that Satoshi had been extra careful since that day “You were upset and angry…Nobody could blame you for that…Kazu knowingly used you…And you are trying to make up for it now by dating Masaki…”
“Excuse me…? What do you mean?”
“…You got here and asked out the outsider straight away and you’re not doing it to deflect attention away from Kazu and me?” Jun asked with a wide grin feeling justified in his thoughts when Satoshi’s cheeks went a little pink “I will warn you though that Kazu likes that kid and if you hurt him…”
“…I’m not going to…I mean…Okay…I had the stupid idea that I might help you and Nino out…But yesterday…I actually had a lot of fun with him…He’s an idiot but…There’s something cute about him…” Satoshi gave an embarrassed smile as he tapped his fingers against his legs and Jun half wrinkled his nose knowing that in his opinion nobody would or could be as cute as his Nino.
“…Kazu thinks that he’s been going through something...” He mumbled remembering all of the conversations that they had had about it “After what he went through with his mum I imagine that he knows when somebody isn’t completely right…”
“I suspect that to…He has a scar on his stomach that he thinks that I haven’t noticed…And Sho said that he has bad dreams…” Satoshi told him much to his surprise as he got the impression that Sho and Satoshi rarely spoke at least about anything other than the running of the circus and how much debt that they were in. It was a troubling subject but Nino refused to even think about it determined that everything would work out for the best in the end. Jun didn’t have that optimism but he also didn’t have the luck of the Ninomiya’s and Kazuko as his mother. She might have been an outsider at one point in her life but Kazuko had thrown herself into the life learning from the best fortune tellers they had until she knew everything. “I’m sorry about letting you fall that day…It was just for a moment just a stupid thought that if I let you…If you weren’t here…”
“…Kazu would have been yours? Sorry...Even if I died…Kazu wouldn’t be yours…He would have killed himself first…” Jun sighed heavily knowing just how messed up their relationship must be to others but it worked for them and it had worked that way ever since the boy had given him the playing card. The playing card that he had sown into his costume right at that moment even though he had told Nino that he had lost it ages ago. “…Sorry but it’s the truth…Kazu is mine and I am his…It’s been that way since we were kids…”
“I know…But I wasn’t thinking straight…As soon as I saw you fall I knew that I had made a huge mistake…I would never have…” Satoshi sounded almost tearful again and Jun nudged his shoulder flashing him a smile as he muttered;
“I know…That’s why I still trust you…Kazu…Kazu will be fine eventually…It will take a while though you know how he can be...”
“…I doubt that he could ever forgive me for letting you fall and I can’t understand how you can still trust me when knowing that I purposely let you fall…if you had let me fall I wouldn't have even been wanting to sit here with you…”
“Maybe…Maybe not…I just say we never let that happen again…”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^
“…I think that it’s time that we had a talk…”
“What about?”
“Don’t play dumb, it doesn’t suit you, I mean about Kazu…”
“I don’t have time to talk about your boyfriend…”
“…I know that you confessed to him…” Jun sighed and as he expected Satoshi stiffed his hand holding onto his legs tightly “And that he turned you down…I also know that you purposely let me fall that day…”
“…” Satoshi stiffened and then a noise ripped out of his throat that sounded almost the way Niji had done when Nino had first brought him home. The tiger had been so sickly and injured and Nino normally had very little patience that Jun was positive there would be nothing that could be done with it but his lover had carefully healed him and made him into a lovely creature that liked nothing more than to be involved in whatever it was that Nino was doing. Nino had that effect on most people though himself included. He sometimes suspected that Nino genuinely had no idea of the effect that he had on people which was why he was always having to remind people of who he belonged to.
“I’m sorry…” Jun breathed softly finally getting the words that he had been wanting to say for the past couple of days out “…About Nino and how he acted…And how he’s acting now…”
“I try and kill you and you apologise…?” Satoshi laughed jerkily sounding like he was about to cry and Jun gave an awkward sigh his eyes going down to the crowd again where Nino was being circled by a group. For a moment it looked as though he was being attacked but Niji let out a roar and there was a puff of smoke and it became obvious that he was just doing something like a show.
“You didn’t try to kill me…If you did want me dead you could have had at least a dozen chances since then…” He gave a smile and nudged his arm a little knowing that Satoshi had been extra careful since that day “You were upset and angry…Nobody could blame you for that…Kazu knowingly used you…And you are trying to make up for it now by dating Masaki…”
“Excuse me…? What do you mean?”
“…You got here and asked out the outsider straight away and you’re not doing it to deflect attention away from Kazu and me?” Jun asked with a wide grin feeling justified in his thoughts when Satoshi’s cheeks went a little pink “I will warn you though that Kazu likes that kid and if you hurt him…”
“…I’m not going to…I mean…Okay…I had the stupid idea that I might help you and Nino out…But yesterday…I actually had a lot of fun with him…He’s an idiot but…There’s something cute about him…” Satoshi gave an embarrassed smile as he tapped his fingers against his legs and Jun half wrinkled his nose knowing that in his opinion nobody would or could be as cute as his Nino.
“…Kazu thinks that he’s been going through something...” He mumbled remembering all of the conversations that they had had about it “After what he went through with his mum I imagine that he knows when somebody isn’t completely right…”
“I suspect that to…He has a scar on his stomach that he thinks that I haven’t noticed…And Sho said that he has bad dreams…” Satoshi told him much to his surprise as he got the impression that Sho and Satoshi rarely spoke at least about anything other than the running of the circus and how much debt that they were in. It was a troubling subject but Nino refused to even think about it determined that everything would work out for the best in the end. Jun didn’t have that optimism but he also didn’t have the luck of the Ninomiya’s and Kazuko as his mother. She might have been an outsider at one point in her life but Kazuko had thrown herself into the life learning from the best fortune tellers they had until she knew everything. “I’m sorry about letting you fall that day…It was just for a moment just a stupid thought that if I let you…If you weren’t here…”
“…Kazu would have been yours? Sorry...Even if I died…Kazu wouldn’t be yours…He would have killed himself first…” Jun sighed heavily knowing just how messed up their relationship must be to others but it worked for them and it had worked that way ever since the boy had given him the playing card. The playing card that he had sown into his costume right at that moment even though he had told Nino that he had lost it ages ago. “…Sorry but it’s the truth…Kazu is mine and I am his…It’s been that way since we were kids…”
“I know…But I wasn’t thinking straight…As soon as I saw you fall I knew that I had made a huge mistake…I would never have…” Satoshi sounded almost tearful again and Jun nudged his shoulder flashing him a smile as he muttered;
“I know…That’s why I still trust you…Kazu…Kazu will be fine eventually…It will take a while though you know how he can be...”
“…I doubt that he could ever forgive me for letting you fall and I can’t understand how you can still trust me when knowing that I purposely let you fall…if you had let me fall I wouldn't have even been wanting to sit here with you…”
“Maybe…Maybe not…I just say we never let that happen again…”
TBC
A/N: I hope that this is okay ^_^