I need a vacation.
The last few weeks have really been a strain on me. I'm snapping at my co workers, I'm snapping at my husband... poor guy.
Don't get me wrong, I love my job. But, as with all jobs, there are those who will get under your skin and make you want to go on a mad rampage. Thankfully I don't have to work with them on a daily basis, but the problem is is that the few interactions I DO have with them tend to be sour. Kind of puts a bit of a snag if I want to move on to bigger and better things in other departments. Though truth be told, I'm not sure I'd really want to work with / under them anyway, so to be honest it's not likely to end up with them stopping me 'cause I'll never try for it. But then again, that's just freaking annoying too. We'll see. And I'd like to think that as much as I have to interact with other departments, overall, I get along well enough with everyone in them and they generally if they don't like me, can at least deal with me. I can't make everyone happy.
I think I just need a week's vacation so my shit meter can empty out and I can start fresh. I'll admit it: I'm in "I have no more patience for people" mode, and the problem is that it's always the ones you don't want to piss off that end up being the straw that breaks your back.
Just my luck.
In other news I've hardly heard from my folks. I've heard from some my brother. I don't know what's going on with him, and I know there isn't much I can do to help him. I love him dearly, but he just never seems to be able to save money. So as much as I want to try to help him out, I know that doing so will be asking for us to go into debt, because he'll eat our food and user our electricity... but never have the money to pay for the bills once that comes due. And I really don't want to pull the older-sister-you-will-give-me-your-paycheck-mother-mode on him either. 1) He wouldn't sit well with it, and 2) I'd be better off trying to breathe underwater.
I really desperately want to actually go somewhere for our vacation, but I think instead I'll save the money and put it toward some new computer systems for my hubby and I. I'm thinking about turning the upstairs guest room into a computer room for us so we can play games together. Spend some good old fashioned time together. I don't think we'd ever go into the living room after that... we'd have a TV up there, two machines, and a bed. That could keep us entertained for an entire weekend without ever having to leave save for restroom and food.
Other than that I am alive. Work will get better, I just need to learn to be assertive without sounding like a bitch. I'm working on it. Like I told someone today: I have two modes: easy to get along with and willing to bend and "I've had it up to here screw you" bitch mode. I have no happy medium.
Besides... mediums are rarely happy. All those psychic things...
Don't get me wrong, I love my job. But, as with all jobs, there are those who will get under your skin and make you want to go on a mad rampage. Thankfully I don't have to work with them on a daily basis, but the problem is is that the few interactions I DO have with them tend to be sour. Kind of puts a bit of a snag if I want to move on to bigger and better things in other departments. Though truth be told, I'm not sure I'd really want to work with / under them anyway, so to be honest it's not likely to end up with them stopping me 'cause I'll never try for it. But then again, that's just freaking annoying too. We'll see. And I'd like to think that as much as I have to interact with other departments, overall, I get along well enough with everyone in them and they generally if they don't like me, can at least deal with me. I can't make everyone happy.
I think I just need a week's vacation so my shit meter can empty out and I can start fresh. I'll admit it: I'm in "I have no more patience for people" mode, and the problem is that it's always the ones you don't want to piss off that end up being the straw that breaks your back.
Just my luck.
In other news I've hardly heard from my folks. I've heard from some my brother. I don't know what's going on with him, and I know there isn't much I can do to help him. I love him dearly, but he just never seems to be able to save money. So as much as I want to try to help him out, I know that doing so will be asking for us to go into debt, because he'll eat our food and user our electricity... but never have the money to pay for the bills once that comes due. And I really don't want to pull the older-sister-you-will-give-me-your-paycheck-mother-mode on him either. 1) He wouldn't sit well with it, and 2) I'd be better off trying to breathe underwater.
I really desperately want to actually go somewhere for our vacation, but I think instead I'll save the money and put it toward some new computer systems for my hubby and I. I'm thinking about turning the upstairs guest room into a computer room for us so we can play games together. Spend some good old fashioned time together. I don't think we'd ever go into the living room after that... we'd have a TV up there, two machines, and a bed. That could keep us entertained for an entire weekend without ever having to leave save for restroom and food.
Other than that I am alive. Work will get better, I just need to learn to be assertive without sounding like a bitch. I'm working on it. Like I told someone today: I have two modes: easy to get along with and willing to bend and "I've had it up to here screw you" bitch mode. I have no happy medium.
Besides... mediums are rarely happy. All those psychic things...