Oct 02, 2008 00:50
You sounded so cold. I'd hoped, but doesn't greed always lead us somewhere bad?
Farewell Assembly tomorrow. Goodbye Crescent (officially) it is (though I would still go back occasionally before 'O's).
Ever wondered why I don't usually say "I love you"?
So many of us think of love as whoopy doopy feelings that make us think we're on cloud 9 all the time. Either that, or we think love can never bring happiness in the end. See how many "oh, love is tragic" kind of songs out there?
Both are such lies.
I do know that love is what made sunrises and sunsets, what made men and women, what heaven (where there will be no more sadness) is full of.
However, it's not all rainbows and butterflies. "Jesus loves me, this I know. He was disgraced, made to carry the Cross on His back although He was mighty tired, bruised and battered. He was torturously nailed to the cross. Having the nails to be hammered one by one through his skin, having to be whipped again and again, He could have easily pleaded on His knees and beg for forgiveness although He isn't guilty, He could have cursed and allow hate to burn in Him, but He didn't. In fact, He prayed that they would not be punished as they did not know what they were doing. So there He laid on the cross, He died for my sins, and while He was on the cross, I was on his mind." That's love.
Now you know why I don't use the word 'love' casually?
Love is different than you think
It's never in a song, or on a TV screen
And love is harder than a word
Said at the right time, and everything's alright
I said love is different than you'd think
Well, I know that I have to move on - I've done this many times. I dislike regretting things and holding on to the past. Because that will only hinder our progress, that's one thing I've learnt after all these years.
There's still at least one thing I can't let go of after such a long time, and it only makes life more difficult than it already is. Although listening to those songs didn't make me feel guilty about the whole thing anymore, I found I couldn't look at you in the eye. I can't help what happened previously, and truthfully, I still partly blame you for it. You know what I wanted, and you weren't making things any easier. Who did you think you were? As much as those concerned for me tell me to forget about it and go on in life, but these things cannot be forgotten. You simply forgive all that has to be forgiven and hope for the best. As for the other part of the blame, I blame myself for being so stupid, foolish, weak-willed and easily tricked. At least I have God and my friends through everything, and those friends I treasure most.
We all grow, move on with our lives. It's important to gain new friendships, but equally important to maintain old ones. I really will miss my classmates and schoolmates. I've found just how close Crescent has been to my heart, along with my friends and teachers. I've been taught so many things throughout my time here, and not just classroom stuff.
And all of these moments
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
For tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too
As I put in my MSN personal message, "We've got to move on eventually - but it doesn't mean there's no pain in parting."
And also, it's funny how we always hear mainstream songs about love but not infatuation. Interesting.
friends,
in crescent,
teachers,
love,
z,
lyrics,
food for thought,
the forbidden