The trouble with insomnia...
Have you ever had trouble sleeping? I used to...let me rephrase that, I do. I remember back in the times of high school, I had a bad case of insomnia. It was so intense that I was prescribed these excruciating sick and huge sleeping pills yet even so sometimes I wouldn’t sleep for days.( I don’t think they worked) I hated it because it affected everything I did. I was always either wide awake and kind of sketchy or drowsy and tired. Thankfully after a while I grew out of it...
Well it’s back. I find my self wide awake at weird hours of the night, with nothing to do. I used to just drive around and look for new coffee shops to hang out in till dawn, then head home and have breakfast with my family. Now that I’m older and actually have responsibilities in the morning such as work, I find it hard to be an insomniac. As weird as it sounds, I do enjoy being awake when most of the world is asleep, but I can’t seem to kick the all night habit.
I’m not a big fan of prescriptions to fix my problems, and to be honest if I had a strong immune system I’d never go see a doctor. But what else can you do, when you never sleep. I’ve tried everything from eating different foods to changing my sleeping environment. Everyone else has to sleep but me I guess....
in·som·ni·a - Chronic inability to fall asleep or remain asleep for an adequate length of time.
"It's been a long year since, you've been gone. I've been alone here, I've grown old. I fall to pieces, I'm falling. Fell to pieces and I'm still falling. Every time I'm falling down, all alone I fall to pieces. I keep a journal of memories. I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe. I fall to pieces, I'm falling. Fell to pieces and I'm still falling. All the years I've tried, with more to go. Will the memories die? I'm waiting. Will I find you? Can I find you? We're falling down. I'm falling..."