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hey everyone,
its been a while since i wrote anything in here. i have started my exams. i had my english paper 1 on friday and paper 2 today. both seemed to be ok. i have chem on wednesday though which will be a bit tougher.
Some bad news. My friend Ally and i had a huge fight over this guy she had been hanging around with. He sells drugs, uses drugs and is just an overall bad guy. They dated for a while a little while back and he just turned her into this person who no one recognised. it wasnt nice. he got her into heavy drugs and hurt her.
Well, SHe started hanging out with him again and from the start it was bad. She got arrested for posession and intent to sell, DUI and resisting arrest. this was all because apparently she had drugs in her bag which belonged to Ben buit when he saw the cops he pissed off and left her to take the fall. so basically, shes facing a maximum 15 yrs in jail. I didnt make it any easier on her though by accusing her of using drugs again and pretty much saying that if she was gettin gback into that scene i wanted nothing to do with it. she got defensive and started saying how my sister gets off so easy when she does things wrong but when its her she is made out to be a horrible person and I told her the reason that was so was because people care if my sister gets better but no one cares about her anymore.
it was a horrible, careless thing to say to her and i regretted it as soon as it came out of my mouth. Its so untrue as well. I love Ally, she is like my sister. so many people are worried about her and want her to get better.
I found out after my exam on friday that she had attempted suicide and was in hospital. I still feel guilty about it. as much as people have been saying its not my fault, im sure that if i hadnt said it she wouldnt have even thought about that. Its horrible.
I have apologised to her and she doesnt blame me, but i cant help but feel responsible. the worst part is, i accused her of using again when it was proven she hadnt used in blood tests they took at the hospital. So i should have trusted her but i didnt.
On a happier note, it seems as though Ollie and i might be getting back together. Im not 100% sure whether its what i want right now but he has said he made a mistake and he wants to be with me. He hurt me alot when we broke up, and im not going to go back into it stupidly believing he wont change his mind again some day but I enjoy being with him and i miss him.
To some people it may seem weak or whatever to go back to him when he decides and leads him to think he can treat me badly and ill still be there but i dunno. Right now i could do with his support you know.
anyway, better get back to studying or whatever for this chemistry exam. Hope you are all doing well
Krys
its been a while since i wrote anything in here. i have started my exams. i had my english paper 1 on friday and paper 2 today. both seemed to be ok. i have chem on wednesday though which will be a bit tougher.
Some bad news. My friend Ally and i had a huge fight over this guy she had been hanging around with. He sells drugs, uses drugs and is just an overall bad guy. They dated for a while a little while back and he just turned her into this person who no one recognised. it wasnt nice. he got her into heavy drugs and hurt her.
Well, SHe started hanging out with him again and from the start it was bad. She got arrested for posession and intent to sell, DUI and resisting arrest. this was all because apparently she had drugs in her bag which belonged to Ben buit when he saw the cops he pissed off and left her to take the fall. so basically, shes facing a maximum 15 yrs in jail. I didnt make it any easier on her though by accusing her of using drugs again and pretty much saying that if she was gettin gback into that scene i wanted nothing to do with it. she got defensive and started saying how my sister gets off so easy when she does things wrong but when its her she is made out to be a horrible person and I told her the reason that was so was because people care if my sister gets better but no one cares about her anymore.
it was a horrible, careless thing to say to her and i regretted it as soon as it came out of my mouth. Its so untrue as well. I love Ally, she is like my sister. so many people are worried about her and want her to get better.
I found out after my exam on friday that she had attempted suicide and was in hospital. I still feel guilty about it. as much as people have been saying its not my fault, im sure that if i hadnt said it she wouldnt have even thought about that. Its horrible.
I have apologised to her and she doesnt blame me, but i cant help but feel responsible. the worst part is, i accused her of using again when it was proven she hadnt used in blood tests they took at the hospital. So i should have trusted her but i didnt.
On a happier note, it seems as though Ollie and i might be getting back together. Im not 100% sure whether its what i want right now but he has said he made a mistake and he wants to be with me. He hurt me alot when we broke up, and im not going to go back into it stupidly believing he wont change his mind again some day but I enjoy being with him and i miss him.
To some people it may seem weak or whatever to go back to him when he decides and leads him to think he can treat me badly and ill still be there but i dunno. Right now i could do with his support you know.
anyway, better get back to studying or whatever for this chemistry exam. Hope you are all doing well
Krys