Starting to feel like a real grown up...
Chris and I decided to get an apartment in Edinboro next year.
Crazy, right?
Well, we thought about it for a while...I guess it seems pretty sudden, but even this past summer I would have considered living with Chris.
I talked to my mom about it, and to my surprise, the only thing she said was, "It's completely up to you guys. It sounds like a tricky situation...but it's really up to you to know if you're ready." Even after me saying, "Well, we've been on and off, I dunno what to do..." I thought for sure she'd tell me it was an awful idea. But when she told me it was my and chris's choice, I thought about what I really wanted...and I really want to be with Chris. I've always really wanted to be with Chris, but there was always something unsettling about us, something unresolved. We're contented now, we've grown a lot closer over the past months and we keep getting closer.
I don't feel like I'm "just settling" anymore. I honestly think I was too afraid to hurt Chris...I had a huge wall up with him and I always felt very distant from him.
I don't think any boyfriend has ever loved me so much, or desired so much to take care of me and make me happy. He is my best friend, probably the best friend I've ever had...and I'm willing to do what ever it takes to not hurt him again. I feel like I'm falling into place with myself. I don't really know what happened or when it happened, but something clicked with me. I feel content, and happy, and loved. And I love him!
Crazy, right?
Well, we thought about it for a while...I guess it seems pretty sudden, but even this past summer I would have considered living with Chris.
I talked to my mom about it, and to my surprise, the only thing she said was, "It's completely up to you guys. It sounds like a tricky situation...but it's really up to you to know if you're ready." Even after me saying, "Well, we've been on and off, I dunno what to do..." I thought for sure she'd tell me it was an awful idea. But when she told me it was my and chris's choice, I thought about what I really wanted...and I really want to be with Chris. I've always really wanted to be with Chris, but there was always something unsettling about us, something unresolved. We're contented now, we've grown a lot closer over the past months and we keep getting closer.
I don't feel like I'm "just settling" anymore. I honestly think I was too afraid to hurt Chris...I had a huge wall up with him and I always felt very distant from him.
I don't think any boyfriend has ever loved me so much, or desired so much to take care of me and make me happy. He is my best friend, probably the best friend I've ever had...and I'm willing to do what ever it takes to not hurt him again. I feel like I'm falling into place with myself. I don't really know what happened or when it happened, but something clicked with me. I feel content, and happy, and loved. And I love him!