Priorities
Oh lord. I feel pulled in sooooo many directions. Where I am in this moment is struggling with prioritizing because at this point it all seems equally important. I want to do EVERYTHING and I can't do everything because trying to do everything makes me crazy. Or more accurately, it turns me into a grumpy gus because I get low on sleep and downtime.
This is what I have going on:
- working full time
- creating my own business
- book/blog
- kung fu
- organizing the big summer retreat in Missouri
- organizing my meetup group
- my 12 step program
- You Can Heal Your Life study group/EFT stuff/my personal growth
- plus all the Ananda Marga stuff (group meditations, retreats, fundraising events, etc.)
I want it all to be number one. And the other problem is kung fu and the you can heal your life study group go hand in hand because they both take place at D's, right after each other. So I can't make kung fu a priority and then drop you can heal your life because he won't drive me home until the study group is over. They are tied. I feel so conflicted.
Oy. Really though, let's think about this. In order of importance it should go like this:
1.) working full time
2.) my 12 step program/health because if I'm not healthy I can't do anything else
3.) AM stuff, because, well, it's my life, my community, my world. This means my daily practice too.
4.) my biz
5.) my book/blog
6.) kung fu
7.) organizing the summer retreat
8.) meetup group
9.) You can heal your life study group.
Except that I feel like number 9 should be higher because I'm all about people changing their own reality and exploring that and whatever. But I mean, don't I already accomplish that with my blog and my meetup group and just the conversations I have with people? So really it is a priority but just not in its current structure? As in I can drop the study group?
I'm just having trouble scheduling my time I guess. I don't know. I guess I'm giving myself permission to skip certain things, like kung fu, sometimes. And maybe on the weekends I'm going to be out at D's most of the day I can keep my Saturday free and clear. Oy vey. This being a grownup business is hard work.
In other news last night my neighbor was playing loud music with the bass blaring and I knocked on the door. Turns out it's this teeny, tiny foreign girl, which was a SHOCK to me because from the footsteps I hear it sounds like a 300 pound gorilla who likes to go bowling. She apologized, citing her brother's birthday party, and then offered me a slice of cake. Adorbs. Oh and yes, she turned the music down.
This is what I have going on:
- working full time
- creating my own business
- book/blog
- kung fu
- organizing the big summer retreat in Missouri
- organizing my meetup group
- my 12 step program
- You Can Heal Your Life study group/EFT stuff/my personal growth
- plus all the Ananda Marga stuff (group meditations, retreats, fundraising events, etc.)
I want it all to be number one. And the other problem is kung fu and the you can heal your life study group go hand in hand because they both take place at D's, right after each other. So I can't make kung fu a priority and then drop you can heal your life because he won't drive me home until the study group is over. They are tied. I feel so conflicted.
Oy. Really though, let's think about this. In order of importance it should go like this:
1.) working full time
2.) my 12 step program/health because if I'm not healthy I can't do anything else
3.) AM stuff, because, well, it's my life, my community, my world. This means my daily practice too.
4.) my biz
5.) my book/blog
6.) kung fu
7.) organizing the summer retreat
8.) meetup group
9.) You can heal your life study group.
Except that I feel like number 9 should be higher because I'm all about people changing their own reality and exploring that and whatever. But I mean, don't I already accomplish that with my blog and my meetup group and just the conversations I have with people? So really it is a priority but just not in its current structure? As in I can drop the study group?
I'm just having trouble scheduling my time I guess. I don't know. I guess I'm giving myself permission to skip certain things, like kung fu, sometimes. And maybe on the weekends I'm going to be out at D's most of the day I can keep my Saturday free and clear. Oy vey. This being a grownup business is hard work.
In other news last night my neighbor was playing loud music with the bass blaring and I knocked on the door. Turns out it's this teeny, tiny foreign girl, which was a SHOCK to me because from the footsteps I hear it sounds like a 300 pound gorilla who likes to go bowling. She apologized, citing her brother's birthday party, and then offered me a slice of cake. Adorbs. Oh and yes, she turned the music down.